I freed you…

He opened the diary and read it with tears falling, "Well, I don't know if I can ever forgive you Louis. I had never expected that you… you will... (A dried drop of tear on the paper) you will divorce me. I was thinking how you could forget the vows we made in our marriage but maybe you never wanted to fulfill those promises so you… I still remember how you promised me, to love me until your last breath and to always know that when challenges arise we will always find our way back to one another.

You said that your heart entirely belonged to me after that day. How could give your heart to someone else now? (A drop of tear on the paper) I thought that we will be together with each other until we turn old but how can I now when you are not here with me, when you do not trust me.

I freed you from the promises you made, from the burden you have. I signed those papers you sent me.

I might also forgive you for our child but I don't think so I will be able to love you again. I have been living alone these days and I think I can raise MY child alone. I will leave this place after I give birth. I will start a new life and give my baby all the love. I will never let my child miss father's love. I felt a kick just now and I guess my child also is okay with my decision. But I know that no one can love you more than me. However we will never come into your life again. But... I just will like to keep this locket. Can I do that? Do you think so low of me that you sent John and said that I can demand anything I wanted? I never cared about your money but...

Well I guess it is me that I can never forget you and maybe I will still love you until I die but I will never forgive you. I called you after so many days because I thought that baby at least should hear the father's voice. Well it will be the first and the last time MY baby heard your voice.

I was so happy because Andrew came and at least he trusted me. Isn’t it funny that although you were the father of the child, you did not trust me and Andrew trusted my words just like that. I wonder if you have ever loved me. Was it all my illusion? Anyway I was happy for him as he got a girl he deserved. I don't know why but I had a nonsense thought in my mind again. I just wanted Andrew to take care of my law firm if anything happened to me. I guess due to this pregnancy and maybe I am alone in this I got too many negative thoughts. I tried and consoled myself every day to think good for MY child.

I don’t know I might have filled this diary with rubbish. But I… (A drop of dried tears) I am alone. (another drop) I am alone especially when I needed someone by my side. I have no one by my side. Neither my husband, nor my parents no one. I cannot trouble Andrew anymore. He has already done lots for me. I guess god sent him for me especially for these cases. Whenever I was alone he was there. I wonder why I have to be alone again. I cannot be a burden to him again. I was a loner in school and I rarely had anyone I could share and still now I guess nothing changed. I am always a burden… How funny that I tried to take my life twice in this life! (another drop of dried tears) Once I dropped the idea because I heard the happy sound of my mother and another time because I realized I have another living being living inside me. Because I was going to be a mother. I wondered what I will tell my child after he/she asks me about father or family.

He turned the page and it was empty. He saw the last page was folded and turned it and saw, “I love you Louis. I forgive you. I want to tell you this, I wonder when.” He hugged the diary and cried... and cried. John came in after hearing him cry and Amy was on the door. John consoled him and after few minutes, he came back to normal and he said, "Find that b*stard and make him pay for his sins. Don't kill him but send him to prison and make sure that in every second of his life he regrets being alive.”

John went out agreeing and then he wiped his tears and after that they went back. Since that day, Louis was more ruthless to everyone else and he only cared about his family and the ones close to him. He did not remarry and loved Lara more than anyone in the world after Sarah. As Sarah's wish Andrew looked after the law firm and as he got married to Emma, Emma started looking after the business with Nancy. Scott and Rihanna was in prison. Scott was in for the some of his crimes and also Louis made sure to add the crimes they did not committed.

Here is a poem dedicated to this story by my friend,

A piece of memory,

a piece of my part,

a piece that filled my empty heart.

From getting bullied,

to building my courage

From leaving home

to walking through the empty doors.

Growing bit by bit,

From step to step,

Learning to live again

by fulfilling my dreams, I say