WHY ME?

Noah saw me coming, she pulled me and headed towards the washroom. She closed the door and said, "How could you do this?" I did not know what she was talking about, so I asked as I was unaware, "What are you telling? What did I do now?" She switched on her phone and showed me a video. It was posted by an anonymous person, the video was of Sofia's. I was shocked by myself.

I said, "How did this go viral?" She said, "Didn't you post this?" I said, "No, I had already deleted the video last time after I gave it as a proof."

"Oh, god. Everyone here thinks that you posted it. I don't know but some of them rumored that you took revenge on Sofia by posting her videos because she said that you were raped. Also, Sofia is already in school, I don't know where she is." she exclaimed.

It was a big shock for me. Obviously everyone will think that was me. No one will believe me. But the most important thing was Sofia. I was worried for her. I said, "Let's go and check on her." Just when we took a step out of washroom, there was Sofia.

Few people were there watching. She was crying, she approached me and slapped me. She shouted, "Why did you do this? Why?" Just when she was going to hit me again, I closed my eyes. But I did not feel anything, I opened and saw that Noah had grabbed her hand. Soon, there were lots of viewers.

Michael and his friends were also there. Noah said, "Listen to her first." She left the hand and I said, "I don't know how the video got leaked. I had already deleted it. I... I" I suddenly remembered that I had sent the video to Alice. I suspected her because I knew she would do anything for me after I had to go through so much. So, I could not speak anything. I just looked down.

She laughed and said, "You cannot even explain yourself now. I know you did this." Just then Michael came front and spoke up, "Sofia, do you know how much she has done for you? She even took promise from us to not tell anyone about you. Yesterday when I texted her and told her to tell the truth to everyone that she was not the one who was raped because everyone was talking about it, do you know what she said? She said to let it be. She said, everyone had already thought it was her, so she did not care about it and told that it was fine as long as your name won't come out."

After listening this everyone went silent, Sofia left the place without a word. The place was soon empty leaving me and Noah. After that, I did not want to stay there any longer. So, I went home. As soon as I reached home, my mom was surprised because I just went and it did not even take long for me to return. I went straight to my room and called Alice. I asked her if it was her doing. She did not lie to me and said it was her. She asked her friend to do it. I was already so much angry, I took everything out on her. I told her things I should not have. I told her why she did it without asking me. Why did she meddle in my business and all…

I ended my call. My mom had come to me. My dad had also already come home. First of all they asked me if I was fine, and when I said I was they started scolding me. They started saying that just because I did not want to study engineering, I could not do everything I wished. We had a big quarrel. I was trying to tell them, that was not the exact thing at first but I lost my mind and said whatever they told was true.

However, it did not make me so sad which made me after what they said after that. It was always other people who compared me but not them so I was fine. But they just did now.

My dad started, "Look at your younger sister, she just won the national award for her art yesterday. She is making her parents proud while you cannot even just do some reading. What other talents do you have if you do not do engineering? Learn something from your sister. You just have been eating and being more fat staying home. You do not even study. At least do something so that we can be proud of you."

I could not speak after that. It broke my heart. I knew I did not have any talents like her. But... what could I do, it was not my mistake. Whatever he said was a bitter truth. I knew I was a shame to my parents but now they made me realize too that I was. My eyes were already filled with tears. I looked down and did not let it fall.

My mother spoke as I did not reply. "Your father is right. You do not even know how to talk to your relatives. I just have been hearing good things for your sister and even I have to hear that you do not speak to the relatives. You act as a dumb just replying their quetsions. Learn to be cheerful like her. What a shame that we are telling you to learn from your younger sister! Just study, that is all we want. Make us proud of you too."

They left me alone in my room. I stayed in my room crying by myself whilst lots of thoughts crossed through my mind. My heart was shattered.

"Why is it me who is like this?"

"Why do I have no talent?"

"Why can I not speak properly to my relatives?"

"Why is my younger sister better than me?"

"Why am I a shame to my parents?"

"Am I so bad that not only other people and Charlie but my parents also think I am not beautiful?"

"Why am I not beautiful?"

"Am I just a burden in this world?"

"Is it because I am not beautiful and even do not have talents, I did not have friends before?"

"Am I that worse?"

"Is that why Charlie also used me... Am I so pathetic?"

"Why am I not loved?"

"Why...???"

"Why me?"

AUTHOR'S POINT OF VIEW

The next day:

Sarah's mom went to Sarah's room because she did not open her door whole day yesterday and she did not eat anything and when she talked to her from outside the room, Sarah said not to come anymore and leave her alone. She left her alone yesterday letting her cool down but was worried and in regret. She knocked the door. There was no answer. She knocked two times more but still there was no answer. When she twisted the doorknob, the door was opened, but she was shocked.

“Saraaahh…”