What a day!

A WEEK LATER

I woke up early because of alarm. I was expecting some calls or messages but I did not get any. I was a little sad because it was my twenty eighth birthday and no one had even sent me a text. I freshened up and went to kitchen. There was a ring on the bell. I excitedly went to open the door because I thought Andrew came to wish me in person. But nothing happened as I expected. As I opened the door. I was smiling brightly but… "Hey, lovey, I am here to eat. Please make me breakfast also. I am a little busy with my work. I will be in the lobby." He splurged all those words and went to lobby. I looked at his back. I felt sad. I thought he would remember. He never missed my birthday but... I thought that he was just busy with his work so he forgot. So, I went to kitchen and made us breakfast. I called him to kitchen after setting the table. He came with a document in his hand. He looked at the document the whole time and did not even speak to me. I got up and did my dishes and said, “I am going now you can lock the door and go when you are done.”

I tried to look a little different and went to my firm. In the firm also everyone was the same. Well everyone said me the same thing, "You are looking different/ beautiful today." I just smiled back at them. I was expecting at least a call from my parents and Alice or even Louis but I did not get any. I became sad. I was in my office and no client was coming. So, it made me think about my old days. I never celebrated my birthday. The only thing I did to celebrate it as a child or teenager was give some chocolate to my family and receive some monetary gifts sometimes and sometimes I did not get any gift. I cried every year on the night of my birthday. I always wanted to celebrate it grandly like other kids did but I never had such birthday because when I was really small, maybe 2 years, my mother's father, my grandfather died on the day of my birthday. So, I never celebrated it.

Even my sister had a celebration for her birthday. I enjoyed when I was in her birthday but I ended up getting sad inside my heart after looking at how beautiful dress she wore, seeing the cake she cut and also the gifts she received. When Alice came into my life, she started wishing me every year except after we quarreled. When we were in college I went to eat out with Alice and her two friends also on the day of my birthday.

After I met Andrew, he always cooked delicious breakfast for me and he came to take me from my office and we went back together and we spent the evening together by watching horror or funny movies and I even cut the cake he made by himself and he also gave me gifts. A call on the office phone brought me back into reality. Unknowingly, I had tears falling down so I wiped it and adjusted my voice and picked it up and it was the receptionist so I said, "Yes". She said that we have a meeting about a case of another lawyer in five minutes. So, we just spent the day just like normal.

After that everyone left and I went to a cafe. I thought to myself, "Well I can celebrate my birthday by my own." So, I ordered a small cake and cut it and ate it. I also ordered a coffee and I started looking at a document. I was lost in the document for an hour. It was already 6p.m. so I went back. On my way, my car broke, and I just thought, "What a day!" I called a towing company and looked for a cab but I did not get one so I walked. I just thought I should at least be happy on my own. So, I started looking at the streetlights and the view while walking. But maybe my birthday is always the worst day of the year for me, my heels also broke. I just scolded myself, "Why did I have to wear this heel today!" I tried to attach it but it did not. A glimpse of tear was in my eyes, but I comforted myself, "Come on Sarah, I guess God is saying you to buy yourself a gift." So, I walked uncomfortably for a little to a shoe shop. I bought a comfortable pair of shoes to wear and I bought one extra pair also and walked again until I reached home.