Chapter 35
“Ah, Jinre you are here?“
”Is there a rule saying that I mustn't be?“
Can't… can't this be… is he Jinre?
A man appears in front of us, a man having a dark skin who's hair was hiding in his cap. There was a cloak of an officer hanging on his shoulder, with some little scarps on his skin, he seems to be someone having a strong physics, wait… did she just called him in the name of Jinre? Did I heard it right?
”You are as cold as ever Jinre. That is why Fioe dump you countless of times already. You have no hopes“
”Eliza, just shut your mouth up. You have no words to tell that to me when you fucking don't know— “
A large hand suddenly bump his head. It was as if he was being targeted by this two.
”My my, as foul as ever… are we? Jinre?“
”Lenro, you are here too?“
Another man came in with that smile on his face. He looks so young yet he is tall. I bet that he is taller than me. I wonder why is he here.
I mean, why are they in a place as this where I was residing for the mean time? Aren't they suppose to be in some other place?
”Oh, right in time, He is awake. Let's male every one know, there are huge bunch of them wanting to learn about his condition after all“
That white man suggested as he have the smile on his lips. With a clothe that looks so similar to what Jinre have, a name of Lenro is it?
Lenro… lenro… lenro… lenro…
That does sound familiar
Where on earth did I hear that from?
As soon as I can remember, the number of people inside this small room increased. I had no idea how they turned to be this much but, I can say that it was somewhat weird for my position.
Those kids also have that face as if they are thankful about something. Did they got worried about my condition?
”Brother Ethan… I am really really really reaaalllyy glad that you are fine now. I thought that you would not open your eyes forever.. I was… frightened… you was there having no life at all, you dummy!“
Kheina…
Her words… her actions.. She did feel terrible because of me..
”Shh“
Crying like this, I never thought I'd see her in this state. Is it the always scenario of her smiling and picking a fight every now and then?
I was worried at first, on why she seems to taken a liking of me as if I was a brother of her when it was suppose to be sent towards Saypher…
Speaking of the devil
”You are really a moron, are you not? To think that you would get this bad just because of that idiot old man?“
”ah, right. Now that you have mentioned it. What happened to that man? Is he… still alive?“
It was also a worry of me as soon as I gain back that scenario flashing in my mind. To think that I would be that terrified. I was so in mess but… it was as if fate decided for me to be in his eyes. He targeted me resulting for my death—
Ah, I did die… ah, how funny, I still don't know why I am still alive…
”That old man will never see the light of the day..“
Is was the one who spoke. He seems to be quiet just a while ago but he did show the sign of being mad in some ways…
Now I felt curious about what did happen
”The moment the most from those debris falling subside, we saw you in your death door, Sis Fiolle rush to that old man as Kael shouted like a mad man pointing the direction of where those large explosion was from. It was a terrible scenario to even… remember….“
Kheina was holding my wrist, she was seem to remember some scenarios that she wanted to forget.
Putting my hand on her head, I patted it to make her calm down even just for a bit
”We really thought that you are already dead… we thought that you already died in how big that explosion was…“
Migo… he also seems to not have a good figure. Did he not sleep? He have those eye bags on his face clearly visible.
”Right, it wasn't something that I except to happen. I already know that the explosion those bombs can I'm in is not in par with that damage the missile give to the building. It sweep the whole top building clean“
”That was true, it was so loud and big that I had no idea what would happen to you. You big dumb man“
”Saypher… Fiolle…“
Ah, I have no idea why they seem to care about me. When it was I who wants to get on the way the would go. When it was I who wants to be separated with them to be far in danger…
Somehow I feel so bad having that kind of thoughts. It was as if…
I am such a bad person to keep running away like a damn fool
Indeed I can't deny the fact that I am a coward. Even from the start I was a big fat coward who have no guts at all
The reason why I was still alive was probably due to the luck I have. Although I can not fully say that I am lucky tho, but still…
”Ethan“
”Brother Ethan…“
There was a warm liquid thing that was flowing in my eyes. It was so warm… so warm that I can not help but close my eyes…
”You guys…“
Saypher, Migo, Kheina, Kael, Fiolle…. Everyone…
”Thank you…“
I am a man yet, I am being like this?
”Brother Ethan… you are crying?….“
Kheina mumbled as she seems to know how this liquid in my face are called tears
”Yes… I am crying…“
I cried so hard in front of them for I had no idea how am I able to stop it. It was so heavy that I find it comfortable to let it go
What a cry baby I was…
Am I really a grown up adult to be in this state?
There, I heard sobbing and it seems like some of them are crying too. But, I had no time for me to think of peeking who that was.
Right at this moment, I focus myself in the tears that was flowing out of me. It was as if I was letting go of something heavy…
When was the last time I cried again?
That was years ago already, I can not seem to remember fully…
But the only thing that I can never forget is this feeling. This part of me being able to feel the warmth…
So this is the feeling I was begging to received…
The warmth of someone genuinely caring for me.
The warmth of someone who was concerned about my being…
Maybe.. It is not that bad to be a kid sometimes…
I smiled, ironically… crying yet… feeling this happiness.












