Chapter 36
A meal was meant to serve to make your stomach full. To have energy to keep on moving. But… in order to consume it, one must fully enjoy it… or else…
“What is wrong Brother Ethan? Do you not like the food? I can buy in the system store… what would you like?“
”I am fine Kheina… no need to do that“
It was heartwarming to know that someone was concerned to your being but…
Too much is dangerous, it is suffocating at the point that I can no longer know what I must do
”Brother Ethan, eat this too. It taste nice“
”They did say it was one of their special dishes, eat this too. As a sign of their apology for what they have done“
”Migo, Saypher, I am fin—“
Not listening to my words, they both put those dishes in my plate.
I smile trying not to be mad… or else… they would do just as what they did a while ago.
Maybe it really isn't nice to cry in front of too many people
Hah… I feel ashamed…
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It was now evening and everyone was sleeping soundly. In the place of this building, indeed, it was too wide that even if some places have been ruined, joined with the top floor that was swept clean, the building was still in good use.
Maybe, it was because this was meant to be the toughest building in this town. It do live up to its name.
But… still,
Looking at them, even if this room was filled with cushions and bed, I still can't get myself to sleep.
Maybe… a good fresh night air would make me feel sleepy
I did my best to not make any noise that may wake up those kids who are in deep slumber. I do not want them to be disturbed when after a long time they finally have a time to sleep in a comfortable place.
As soon as I shut close the door, I was surprised on how quiet the place was
Honestly, I didn't expect things to be as calm as this. It was as if… everything was getting to be interesting. I mean, everything is going in the way we wanted it to be.
Calm place, a nice room to sleep at, a comfortable bed that can make you be in slumber, food that are much better than the instant noodles I always eat…
But… I can't help but be wary of this situation.
I mean… isn't it just a while ago when I almost died? No… I really do believe that I died back there…
But… I just can't seem to remember anything after darkness fall upon me. Did I perhaps forget something important?
I honestly have no idea but…
There is a part of me sensing that… I shall not bring my guard down…
”I was surprised…“
Stopping my feet from walking, I heard some voices coming from a place not far from where I am. They are just right ahead…
”You are not going to sleep?“
”I don't seem to have any fatigue to sleep“
This voice… I am certain that it was something familiar… I wonder who those people are…
”How are you doing?“
I can hear how the one sigh in disbelief. Ah, now I recognize it. It was Fiolle. Why is she hear up so late? And who is she talking to?
Bet it wasn't that bad to take a peek—
”Now I am more surprised“
There was a sarcasm on her tone. Wait, now I feel like I am doing something bad…
Listening to the conversation of others is indeed bad. I had no idea why I was doing this but no matter how I know that this ain't something nice… my feet won't move.
It was as if… my body was telling me to listen to those two
”Seriously? Jinre… who do you think you are to be concerned yourself to me?“
”Didn't I told you before that I like you?“
There was a brief silence between those two. Oh, now it became a confession. Didn't know that those two have a relationship as that.
Jinre huh… hmm so it was that guy from a while ago. He likes Fiolle? Weird… isn't it how who killed Lenro after protecting Eliza?
It was vague in my memories but… I knew that it was what would happen if ever the game continue to flow on the way it was said to be.
After Saypher killed Fiolle who was the Mage of the twin tower, Jinre is the one that killed Lenro after Lenro tried to protect Eliza… who was currently fighting with Fiolle— their supposed to be enemy.
It was a surprise to me to learn that these people have good relationship. Who would have thought that the Jinre who was the dog of the higher ups would kill his friend just because he was asked to do so…
”I seem to hear you say some words that ain't true. You? Like who,? Me? I doubt“
Now they are having a quarrel huh, should I call it a la or something or what?
Well, a sudden realization struck on my mind. Aren't I… a accused one if ever they learned about me listening to them without their consent?
Hah…
I just feel like, if I go now I would regret it but…
It was their privacy…
Maybe I shall just go
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Fiolle POV
”You dare say you like me and yet you never did any at all“
Looking at him, that boring eyes that he have… it makes me wonder if what he said is really true. He did tell me that feelings he have for me but… even before… his words is not something I can feel.
It was as if it was so little that I can barely realize it if not for him telling those.
”Yes, I like you even back then. I like you for a long time“
”Then why are you like that?“
”Like what?“
Did he really not know? Did he really have no idea of what I was talking?
Jinre is a respectable man. He was strong and serious in his job. The task that was given to him would be fulfilled with no complaints. He was awesome but…
Sometimes I wonder if he was a human of a robot…
That cold eyes he have… that tone that never change… that composed face that barely shows emotion…
I don't think I can understand him at all. I don't think if I am capable to comprehend and decipher what her want to pertain
Most of all…
”You never cared for me… how do you want me to trust you when you do nothing at all…“
All he wanted me to see is him liking me but I have no eyes of an angel to not see his dark sides. All my eyes can realize was him being like that…
Someone who have no care to someone…
”I don't get what you want to tell“
”No… you get it but you just want to not listen to it. Just like before… you are closing your eyes. You want no one but you to make up what you wanted to think about…“
I smiled at him bitterly. He likes me yet… he let those kids die… he let me fight alone… he let me go and not even share his time bringing me back…
It is not as if I want him to do that anyway. It is not as if I have been wishing for him to save me.. Or even give a a helping hand even just for a bit… just to let me know that I am not alone… that I have someone that was fighting for me… fighting with me…
”It wasn't like at all… Jinre. You were just obsessed with the thoughts of you liking me. It became something natural for you to think of but… that is not reality. Because if it isn't, it would not be like that“
I want to go away. Everything was a mess. My mind was all blurry. I have no idea why I am feeling like this but even a while ago, something was wrong with my hands..
It was itching… I have no idea why it was like this but…
My hand seems to be restless at some point…
”why…“
I stop on my foot taking a step away from him
”Why Fiolle?“
He said to me which makes me look at his direction. That sour face of dissatisfaction… that sad face of dejection… I can clearly read it on his face that he was showing…
”Why can't you just give me back my feelings?“
