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I've been laying my lips on hers again for months. She didn't flinch, so I deepened the kiss. There was so much passion in it that one thing led to another.

...

We lay in bed panting when suddenly Ava started crying again. In a panic I wanted to take her hand and calm her down, but she pulled it away from me.

"I should never have let it come to this. It was a mistake, Kian. This only reminded me more of what you did."

I angrily got up from the bed, grabbed my clothes and changed. I endured a lot, but eventually the limit was reached. I loved Ava with everything I had. She was my life and my destiny. I would do anything for her, and that was the mistake. My heart ached so I thought it would be on fire. Before I argue with her any further, I'd rather hide for a while. Maybe my wife would miss me as much as I would miss her. Maybe by separating briefly, I could get her to forgive me and put it all behind us.

I looked at my crying beauty. How I would take her in my arms and tell her how much I adored her. But I knew her. That would only make things worse. With a heavy heart I said, "I'll be gone for a while. I'll give you a chance to think things over. If you really want to break up with me then, then so be it. I won't stop you anymore. You know that I love you more than anything. If leaving me makes you happy. Then I will grant you your wish."

With these words, I left the bedroom and leaned against the door. Tears ran down my cheeks. I was just so weak when it came to her. Even though I was the strongest wolf in the world, a king with skills, I was just a small, whimpering wolf in need of a mate.

If Ava doesn't want me anymore, I'll oblige her. But live without her? I couldn't and I wouldn't. This decision was made. Still, I hoped with all my heart that after those weeks, Ava would realize how much we needed each other.

8 weeks later...

"Is she alright?" I asked Rose as I had every morning since I left. She sighed and replied, "She misses you, Kian. I know it's not easy for her. The whole situation is bloody difficult. But I know you'll get through it."

I massaged my temple while staring out the window. The landscape was covered in snow and it was freezing cold outside. It was the same inside me.

"Do you think I could go back tomorrow?"

"I spoke to her last night. She wanted to speak to you."

"I'll pack my things and be there in the morning!" I said and hung up.

That Ava was still waiting for me at home and hadn't escaped was a good sign. I had palpitations. What did she want to talk to me about? I was afraid but also hopeful at the same time.

I quickly packed my things and made my way to the car. The drive would be long, but I wouldn't sleep. The sooner I get to Ava, the sooner I could hug her again. I missed her smile, which I hadn't seen in months. I missed her smell, her voice. Just everything.

...

When I got home the next morning, I had a bad feeling. Noah seemed to notice my presence because he ran out.

"Why the fuck aren't you answering?"

"My battery was dead, what happened?"

"Ava."

I start.

"What about her?" I asked worried and already ran inside. As I pushed down on our bedroom doorknob, I heard Noah's words.

"She is gone."

No. No, that couldn't be true. She couldn't have run away. She could never have done that to me. I knew Ava loved me. Even if she hadn't shown it in the last few months.

With trembling legs I walked towards our bed and realized something.

No. Was that a farewell letter?

I grabbed the piece of paper and started reading with glassy eyes.

“Kian, I don't even know how to start. I never thought that day would come either. You have to know that I didn't mean those words seriously at the time. I do not hate you. Damn, I love you and that just destroyed me. Because the man I loved everywhere, me - no, ushad done that. I've been able to think a lot about us in the last few weeks. I now realize that it must not have been easy for you either. It was hard for you too and you must have been through a lot. Treating you like that might have been the last straw. I should have been there for you too. That's why I'm sorry. It had taken me this time to notice. Just yesterday I told Rose I wanted to talk to you. I wanted to tell you personally. I wanted to give us another chance. But then I learned something. i'm pregnant You know I can't do it this time I already regret every single day that I had to abort our child. A little innocent creature. Just because you were scared for me that the same thing that happened to Rose would happen to me. I know you wanted to protect me but you should never have forced me to. I will have this child. I will take the second chance and raise this child, our child. I don't want you to give me no choice again. So it's better if I go."

AVA's POV

"Would you like to know what gender the child is?" the doctor asked me.

I shook my head. "No."

"If you want I can give you a guide for single parents?" she suddenly asked me.

A pang went through me. There wasn't a second that I didn't think about Kian. Once our child was born, I would go back to him, if he still wanted us at all. I know that at the time he was afraid of losing me. What happened to Rose shaped our entire lives. We brought Rose back to life, but another person left us. Kian's mother. At that time she had opened a gate to the underworld and as a witch one did not survive. She knew it, but hadn't said a word about it before.

That's why Kian was scared. There was no chance of bringing me back to life if something happened to me during childbirth. I had been away for two months now and I didn't know how Kian was doing. Maybe I should give him a call? Ask me how he was?

When I got home, I grabbed the new cell phone and dialed his number, which I knew by heart.

I had a bad feeling when he didn't take off on the third try either. I dialed Rose's number.

"Hello?" I heard her voice on the other end of the line. She sounded weak.

"Rose? It's me."

"Ava? Where the fuck are you at?"

"I'm...where's Kian?" I inquire directly.

"He's in your room."

"Is he okay?" I asked.

Rose snorted before angrily replying, "Listen Ava. I love you like a little sister so I'll be honest with you. I think you're selfish. After what you two have been through you're leaving him Just like that? I know you were scared. But Kian would never have urged you to abort your child a second time. He had already regretted it several times at the time, especially when you didn't speak to him anymore. He has in his life He's been through a lot. He's suffered too, but you only think about yourself. You're just doing what you think is right. Damn you guys! You guys have to support each other!"

I listened to her crying. She was absolutely right. I was only thinking of myself. Never to Kian, who had done everything for me.

"Where is he? I want to speak to him."

"I'm sorry, but you can't."

"Rose, I'm sorry oke? I miss him and I want to make it up to him. I want to be with him. Only, I want to talk to him first."

"Ava, it doesn't work! Do you hear?"

Suddenly she started sobbing. My alarm bells rang. I got up in a panic and asked, "Rose, what's going on? Where's Kian?"

"He is dying."

...

"We'll be there in ten minutes, Miss!" the taxi driver said worriedly.

I've been crying for hours. When I found out that Kian was doing badly, I immediately got on the first plane and flew back home. My bad conscience killed me. Because of me, Kian was bad. It was always because of me.

Rose had said that Kian wanted to look for me. But it never got that far. He suddenly became ill and passed out. The pack doctor examined him and couldn't find anything at first. He had been in a coma for two months and I wasn't there to help him. i hated myself I hated myself for what I did to him. He didn't deserve me at all.

"We're here, miss!" the man interrupted me. I quickly handed him some bills and stormed out of the car. I ran inside the house as fast as I could, right into our bedroom. My heart broke when I saw Kian. I fell on my knees in front of him, crying, and held his hand tightly. Tears flooded my face. I noticed the others leaving Kian's room. Only Noah stays and watches silently.

"Kian, please get up. I'm sorry. For everything I've done to you. If you get up, I promise I'll never be the same again. I'll always be by your side. Please, Kian."

I lifted my head and looked at Noah who was crying too.

"What did the doctor say? Any news."

He closed his eyes and turned around.

"Kian will get up soon."

Relief flooded my body. I looked at my great love and kissed his face. I smiled and looked at Noah who is now looking out the window.

"That's good news!"

He turned and looked at me with a pained look.

"Noah! That's good news! Why are you looking at me like that?"

"Ava, he won't be the same!" he admitted.

"What... what do you mean by that?" I asked scared.

"His wolf is dying. When he gets up again, he will be an ordinary human. Your mate bond will be gone. The mate bond will disappear."

Shocked, I looked back at Kian. Because of me his beautiful wolf died? All because of me.