Buzz kill

I was so fucking tired the space between us seemed to be endless. I was struggling with each step to get to her. Sometimes I got confused but still managed to walk straight. I was so drunk because I couldn't see the tree I walked into. It was very embarrassing but I finally managed to reach her door. I knocked it quietly. "Who's there"?She asked if her voice was very dry. Is she OK? I am worried now. I knocked on the door again without answering her. "Is that you Lana"? she asked me. Here we go again I thought. I tried to mimic Lana's voice "Yes", I said. "Ok I'm coming ", she said. I chuckled and congratulated myself for my performance.

The door creaked open and her face appeared to be shocked. I couldn't help but laugh at her face. "What are you doing here?'' she asked me. "You see your face"?, I asked her. "Are you drunk"?she asked incredulously. "Nope", I said, giving her a toothy grin. "Go to your room Aidan ", she pleaded with me. "I don't know the way", I said honestly.  She raised her hands exasperated. I laughed more and more and unfortunately I also fell.

"Dear God! Are you ok?", she asked me. "I fucking fell never happened before", I told her ruefully. "I'm sure you are a very grateful person who never fell but did you break anything?", she asked me again. "Nothing that won't heal ", I gave her a grim smile. She looked alarmed and tried to stand me up. But I was a big man and she was very small. "You can't lift me human", I said. She rolled her eyes in response and said, "then help me big bad wolf". I tried to concentrate on my legs and with great effort, I managed to lift myself. I was a bit wobbly and held on to her. But it was her ass I grabbed on. "Oops", I said sheepishly.

She blushed in response and looked away. "I smell", I told her. She looked horrified and looked at her nightshirt. "Me not you human ", I told her playfully. "Where were you at the strip club?'' she asked me. "Nope here common hall but dancers were there", I told her. She looked jealous for a moment. "I only thought of you", I said with a smile. "I think about you in my shower when I….", I said but she raised her hands. "That's too much information. I don't want to know what you do in the shower ", she said.

I shrugged my shoulders hearing this. "Whom should I call to take you back"? she asked me. "I don't want anyone to know I'm here with you", I said sadly. "I can't take you back. I don't have that much strength. I'm a human", she said. "I will sleep floor", I volunteered. "I don't think I can do that. This is your house", she told me. I looked longingly at the bed and said," share I promise to behave". Her eyes grew round "No", she said. "Please I go tomorrow ", I begged her.

"We will figure it out later let us get you to shower as you said you do smell '', she said. I beamed at her. "I'm so pathetic, "  she said to herself. "No princess", I corrected her. "You are a sweet drunk", she said. I was offended," No drunk ", I told her. She smiled and pulled me into the bathroom. It was pretty big. I smiled at her, "nice bathroom ", I said. She shook her head at me. "Can you manage the shower?" she asked me. I nodded my head and started removing my shirt but was having trouble with the buttons.

She wordlessly pushed away my hands and began undoing my buttons I was awestruck by her action. After finishing my shirt she stepped back. "Not helping my jeans ", I said drunkenly. "I think you can manage that on your own or wear it while bathing I don't care", she snapped at me. I wrinkled my nose and said, "boy you are moody ". She rolled her eyes at me. "Give me clothes to change ", I demanded like a child. "I don't know if they have any clothes of your size here", she said. "Find boxers of large size me big boy", I pointed down while saying this.

"Shut up idiot ", she said to me slamming the door on her way. I laughed out loud. Man, she was very entertaining, life would be different with her I thought while opening the shower. I wouldn't be bored for a second because I will be saving everybody's neck. I don't know how that thought crept up. It left a bitter taste in my mouth. I hate her a lot for making me want her. Even now I stared at my dick it was hard. I know the shift of my thoughts has indicated I'm sober now. The water which I left on was cascading over me.

I closed the shower and began to dry my clothes. I wish I was buzzed as before because I had to sleep with her tonight. But I was selfish because this was my last night with her as a free man. Tomorrow everything will be over. I won't be breaking any of the promises just giving myself a break from everything. Nothing changed my attention like her. A few minutes spent with her was enough for me to get high. She was my drug and also a buzz kill. I walked slowly out and she had switched off the lights but I could see her as clearly as in light thanks to my wolf. She looked even more beautiful now when she was in my bed. I turned to the closet and opened it to reveal her clothes neatly folded. She was an organized person and I was a slob. How different we were yet loved each other.

I only wished she loved me a little and showed me more loyalty. It was the only thing I wanted from her undying fidelity to me and my pack and that was the thing she simply couldn't give to me.

I put on a boxer and stood before the bed. "You can sleep here if you want as long as you keep your side", she told me. "Both sides are mine", I said to rile her up. "Then I will sleep on the floor", she said. "I'm kidding love", I said. She slightly stiffened hearing my endearment. She didn't turn just laid there. I dashed to the bed she jumped upright. I laughed loudly. "Are you crazy?", she asked me. "Only for you", I said still laughing. "I thought you were sober for a second ", she said shaking her head. I didn't answer her for a second but I breathed a sigh of relief as she didn't press for more information. I was happy to make her think I was drunk since I didn't want to go away yet.

"Do you love her?", she asked me. "What's not to love"?, I asked her back. "Nothing. I hope you live happily forever", she said. "Liar", I said to her. We were lying side by side only inches between us. If I could so much as move my arms I would touch her. "Tell me about our past", she asked me. "I don't remember "?, I said. She turned her head towards me and said," Now who's lying?", she asked. "What's there to know you lied to me a lot", I said annoyed.

"Did you ever think I might be forced to lie due to circumstances ", she said.  "Like a lover perhaps ", I told her disgustedly. "What?", she said, her voice shocked. "Yes you were going behind me ", I told her. "It must be a mistake", she said. "You know what else is a mistake?", I told her. She shook her head. I dragged them over to me and placed my lips on her lips. We were kissing without abandon and suddenly I pushed her away. Her lips were wet and swollen from my kisses.

"You know why you are attracted to me not only because you are my mate but also because you can't have me", I told her. I didn't care if she found out I'm sober. I abruptly moved out of the bed and she was still watching me. I hated her expression of pity towards me. I walked out of her room to go outside. She immediately followed me and held my hands. I looked at her expectantly.

"I know I have lied to you because you told me I said to you that I like white ", she said to me. "I lied to you. I always liked black because it reminds me of you ", she said breathlessly. "I only lied because I thought you consumed me. I never thought about anything but you. I was very obsessed. I wanted a break from you even if it is a small thing like colour. Maybe whatever you thought could be a huge misunderstanding. I don't know who and why it was created but together if we try we can find out who"? she finished. I stood there between her and the door very perplexed.