Repercussions

When I walked out of there I didn't feel as though I had won the war. My wolf was surprisingly silent. I was bracing myself for another attack considering how violent it was the last time. I nearly died of a headache it caused me. One may envy me for holding the strongest wolf inside me but they didn't know about the price I have to pay. The stronger the wolf, the harder it's to fight them. Many won't understand as long as the interests of wolf and me coincide everything will be smooth but one wrong turn and all hell break loose.

I went to bed and tried to catch up on sleep. But unfortunately, I wasn't successful. After a few more attempts, I stopped trying. I walked out of my room and reached our shallow stream. This used to be our favourite spot where I sat under the big tree. It gave me a sense of soothing all those pleasant memories attached to it except the fact that it was all with my mate. It still gave me the peace of mind I wanted for the moment. I closed my eyes and breathed in the fresh air and listened to the water. I wanted to relax for a few minutes. I'm tired of carrying the whole weight of the world on my shoulders. I welcomed the cool breeze passing over me.

When I looked up I saw my mate who was smiling down at me. I smiled back at her and said," Don't stare", I warned her. "Why"? she asked me back. " You will fall in love with me", I told her. "Too late", she said slowly and leaned down to kiss me. I tried to deepen it but she pushed me back. " Hey you promised to take it slow", she told me. I raised my hands in surrender and replied, "I wasn't the one who started the kiss". She moved away and stood watching the flowing water. It was very shallow. Sort of my special place to make love but my mate didn't sound as if she is interested.

" Hey, what's up with you"?I questioned her. "It's the dream again. They warn me of danger, sort of like a premonition. Something bad was going to happen. Sometimes I see myself in prison chained but as you said that has happened in the past", she finished. I told her it was a misunderstanding as I wanted a clean slate. So it felt like a good idea to hide certain things from her. Like her past betrayals or lies since I was determined to avoid everything that happened before.

" I want to tell you certain things but you won't like it as you are determined to not give me any information about the past", she said. "It's for our good. You want to know about things but it's not necessary you would like it", I managed to say. " Even if I have things to say, your people don't love or respect me the way a Luna is loved", she said. With a good reason, I thought.

"Has someone disrespected you?", I asked her. " Not disrespecting doesn't necessarily mean respecting", she told me." I will talk to them", I said wanting to end the conversation. "You prefer not to talk at all when we argue", she said. " That's what you want us arguing", I shot back sarcastically. "That means we are communicating a step forward. I want to know about the misunderstanding that caused you to put me in jail. I drew a sharp breath. I knew she was getting back her memories that would mean she might know things I want to hide from her soon. Maybe we didn't have much time together. No, I admonished myself, I won't allow it to happen again.

" Would you forgive me for hurting you in your past life if I promise not to do that again? Do you also promise to love and trust me as I do you"?, I asked her. "Yes. I don't mind even if you ordered my killing in my last life", she said trying to smile. " I don't really know the extent of your dreams but I promise I haven't killed you in two times you had been born before and I won't be doing it this time also", I said trying to smile. "Ok", she said to me. " These bad dreams are killing me literally", she placed her palm on her forehead. "They always show me my demise mostly in jail", she said. " I won't let anything hurt you", I said to her. I hugged her then so right, trying to impart my love through it.

How empty my promises were considering she was dead again in similar circumstances. But it was not my fault in the least she was the sole reason for her death. But that doesn't make it anymore, less painful. Irrespective of being the most powerful Alpha of all the tribes, my mate is not faithful to me. She managed to fool me three times and even tried raising an uprising behind my back. I couldn't strike back at her because she had done all that while being with me. I was a true failure. It's a miracle my people still gave me the respect of Alpha.

I was suddenly woken by a familiar voice. I opened my eyes to find Sebastian before me." What is it, man?", he asked me. "Nothing just taking a break seb", I said casually. " Don't lie, man", he said. "What do you want me to say then?", I asked him. " It hurts to see you like this losing your shit", he replied. "I'm fine. I just couldn't sleep at all", I told him.

" You know you are only making it worse", he said. I looked at him bewildering. "You are putting off her punishment for some time but it won't gain you anything except anxiety. Declare her guilty and deliver her punishment which should be a death sentence in the least", he said. " She could be not guilty too you know", I replied him. "Well she was guilty before, wasn't she?", he shot back. " I can't punish her for something that she didn't do in this life", I sighed while saying this. "Your wish man. I'm patrolling now so I gotta go", he said hastily and moved away.

Now my peace of mind was disturbed I chose not to be here and decided to go back to my office which was my new home. The only thing is that I always find my secretary there earlier than me no matter how early I come. " You should have a date, Lana. You spend enough time here already. Go and get a social life if that's possible", I commented to her. "I could say that about you too ", she said curtly.

" Did you check up on her"?, I asked her. She smiled kindly at me, " as a matter of fact I did, she is ok adjusting. She had a light sandwich and juice. She was wondering whether you could give her books to read so she just doesn't kill herself of boredom", she said. Her suicide joke did a number on me and I held on the back of the chair I was holding a little too tightly. It snapped and she lifted her eyebrows at me." I want you to keep her on suicide watch ", I told her. " Are you sure because then she probably won't have any privacy even in the bathroom and she would hate you for it", she replied? "I don't care as long as she lives", I said. " How about we take it easy and put a camera on her bathroom so I can keep a check on her always and she won't be ogled by the guards.

"Then you get to ogle her day and night", I told her. " She won't mind since I saved her life", she laughed at me. I looked down immediately shamed for feeling the stupid jealousy. "Hey, I know you care for her, it's ok. You don't have to hide that from me as you do with the rest", she said.

" I don't think it's hidden anymore considering I spared her life. She had committed a major crime but I still protected her", I said dissatisfied with myself. "You did the right thing. You spared her life because there was a small possibility that she is innocent. There is no sin like hurting an innocent", she declared. " I had made several mistakes concerning her. I just hope to God this is not another, there will be repercussions for my actions", I said.

"Can you do me a favour and let me know where was everyone during the time of the murder. I also want to know the status of our murder weapon", I asked her. " Well, no solid fingerprint from the weapon so far. I will soon get information on everyone's whereabouts. Mike asked me whether we need a forensic team here"? she asked. "No I want to limit our human interaction so a definite no on that suggestion but thank Mike for the offer", I told her.