Chapter 51

Xavier’s POV

It was easy breaking through the cuffs and beating those two lousy guards,

“Did they think that those two wimps could hold me?” I laughed to myself.

I got to my hotel room and threw my jacket on the couch

“What’s wrong my Alpha” Julie said wrapping her arms around me,

“I need some air” I said pealing her arms off me and walking to the balcony,

“Let me guess, your plan didn’t work out, did it?” she said cockily leaning on the side of the balcony

“Damn it, I had it, I had the throne, and I had her, I had it all and I let it slip right through my fingers” I said banging my fist on the balcony, a sudden pain grabbed my heart and travelled throughout my body I dropped to my knees and couldn’t move, I was overpowered by this feeling of agony and pain, I felt like I was dead or at least I wanted to die, Julie pounded on my chest and called out my name but I couldn’t move or respond I felt stuck and at the same time I was being dragged into the abyss.

When I finally came to 15 minutes had gone by and Julie was sobbing uncontrollably on my shoulder saying

“Please come back to me” over and over again. I grabbed her and held her to my chest tightly.

“I’m here, I’m here” I said, and she looked up at me.

“You bustard, don’t you ever do that to me again” she shouted with tears in her eyes. I looked at her and gave her a kiss on the cheek.

“I have to go” I said getting up to leave

“What?!” She exclaimed grabbing my arm

“You cannot leave me; I won’t let you” her words coming out like a whisper

“Please understand Scarlett needs me, I have to go”

“How do you know that? I mean she never wanted anything to do with you before, what makes you so sure this time will work, huh?”

“The bond that Aiden and I share is more than a twin bond and you know that, because he is my Insieme and what he feels I feel, he might not realise it, but I do, and that’s how I know that Scarlett needs me”

“If he doesn’t realise it what makes you so sure that what you’re feeling is right? You are so confident that this Insieme thing is true that you won’t even stop to think that it might not be true, you have no evidence of your claim, all you did was research and came up with a theory even though you know that having twin wolves is unheard of and that’s why the law says one should always be killed immediately after birth, so there is no proof to what you’re saying, Xavier can you at least consider that you might be wrong, think about it, you want it to be true so badly that you manifest this reality that makes it true”

I looked away from her, I hate seeing her like this, I know she only wants me to choose her, and to be honest I have been happy with her all these years but how can I when my mate is waiting for me, I hate hurting her like this but at this point I have no choice…I’m sorry Jules but I have to do this.

“I am here, and she is not, I have always been here, I must admit that there is a part of me that wants to let you go off on this silly quest in hopes that you will see the truth for yourself but…” she stopped and put her hands on her hips and looked at her feet breathing heavily, and I could tell she was doing her best to herself back from crying.

“Listen Jules, I know that..”

“What? What do you know Xavier, huh?, that we have spent five years together with you pining after another woman, do you know how much that hurts me? Every time you chose her and not me, you have a sparkle when you talk about her, and god knows I have waited a long time to see that look in your eyes when you talk about me or even mention my name” she took a deep breath and continued

“you even call her name in bed” she said unable to hold back the tears and she started sobbing, I could tell that she was trying her best to hold her pain back, but it was just too great.

“I stayed and I endured in hopes that you would one day realise that I’m your mate and not her!”

I took her hands in mine

“Jules, you know you mean the world to me, and I swear to you if the moon hadn’t chosen Scarlett for me, if the moon hadn’t shown me my true mate you would be the one I would be chasing after” I said looking intently into her eyes

“but you and I know that there is no way a wolf can ignore their mate, it will kill me to even try, and now that I know that Aiden has turned his back on her and his mark is weak I have to go, I have to take my chance, I might not have another” I stepped back and watched as she broke down in front of me everything seemed to go in slow motion, I let her hands go and she fell to the ground, I turned and walked to the door, the door closed behind me but I could still hear her cries and my heart pained but as much as I wanted to go back and comfort the only person in the world that understood me, I couldn’t, I have to go, I have to get to my mate, I have to seize my opportunity while there is still time, I know that I will regret it for the rest of my life if I don't try.

“Scar I’m coming and this time I promise that I won’t be late, wait for me my love”