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It was silent as I sat there, the only noises were Achilles' soft sobs and whimpers. I bit my lip before smiling.

"Do you want to see our son?" I asked softly. "We still have to name him."

He looked at me, I smiled even more as that light came back into his eyes.

"Yes." He croaked.

I kissed him on the head before walking out. The doctor lead me to the nursery where I saw my baby boy. I gently picked him up and carried him to the room.

When Achilles saw him he smiled. I grinned, looks like our son may be the key to him getting through this. I gently handed him to him as he laid there.

I sat down in the chair, but Achilles convinced me to lay beside him. I was hesitant at first, but got up and laid beside him. I smiled and gently stroked our son's cheek.

His eyes were filled with wonder as he stared at us.

"What should we name him?" I asked.

"You didn't name him yet?" Achilles asked.

I shook my head, "No, I was waiting for you."

He smiled a little more, he looked at him for a moment.

A thought struck me and I grinned, "Achilles."

"What?" He asked.

I chuckled, "I want to name him Achilles Jr."

He looked at me for a second, an emotion passed through his eyes when a smile appeared. He nodded and looked back at our son.

"Achilles Jr., welcome to the family." He whispered.

For the rest of the day we spent time with our son and laid beside each other. Achilles ended up moving over and making me sat against the pillows as I breast fed Achilles Jr.

After a while we had to put him back in the nursery so he could nap. When I returned Achilles saved my spot. He seemed uncertain about asking me to lay beside him again, thinking of himself as a cheater still.

I frowned at him, I climbed in beside him and pulled him close. He was tense for a while, but eventually relaxed against me. I kissed him on the cheek and rested my head on his chest.

"You know I love you, right?" I whispered.

He stayed silent for a moment, "How?"

I furrowed my eyebrows and sat up, "What do you mean?"

"I had sex with...I basically cheated." He murmured.

I sighed, "Achilles, did you want to have sex with her?"

"No, I had no choice, I was tied down and she-

"Then you didn't cheat. She raped you." I said, my voice softening.

He sighed in defeat, "Then why do I feel so guilty?"

I laid beside him again and traced his biceps. "Because you won't accept the fact that she did it forcefully. For some reason you want to blame yourself."

I looked at him again, "Why?"

He looked at me with sorrow filled eyes, I could see something crumbling inside of him. However, he shrugged and looked away.

I let out a breath, "Fine." I whispered.

I still laid beside him during the night, needing my own reassurance that he was actually beside me. That this wasn't some dream and I would wake up without him.

Some time during the night I started crying. I tried to hold it in, but I couldn't. I froze when Achilles suddenly wrapped his arms around me and pulled me to his chest.

He kissed the top of my head, "Shhhhh." He soothed.

I swallowed, "Shouldn't I be comforting you?"

"You've been doing that for the past two days. You need someone to comfort you and I'm your mate." He whispered, kissing me again.

I cuddled against him, "Are you going to be okay?"

He tensed up, but then relaxed. He hugged me tighter and rested his chin on my head.

"I just wish this never happened." He said quietly.

I kissed his chest since I couldn't move to kiss his chin at least.

"I know, but you're home now and you're safe."

"From them."

I frowned, "What do you mean?"

"I'm safe from them, but not from myself. The hate I have for myself is growing along with the guilt and I don't know what to do."

His voice cracked and I quickly wrapped my arms around him.

"We'll get through it, together."

I woke up the next morning to Achilles snoring softly. I slowly looked over to see his head resting on my chest and his arms wrapped around my waist. I smiled softly at him, I combed my fingers through his hair as I thought of ways to get him through this.

I studied the new scars on his back, shoulders, and there's more on his chest. The worst one was from hot silver. Almost like they branded him.

He slightly moved, but continued sleeping. Come to think of it, this is the first time he actually stayed relaxed while sleeping. I grinned, thank goddess my touch can calm him. I started rubbing his back and planting kisses on his temple.

I frowned when part of his back felt tense. I quietly started to massage it, furrowing my eyebrows at the huge knot. I froze as a moan escaped his mouth.

"Please don't stop massaging me..." He mumbled.

I smirked and continued, chuckling as he moaned. After a while the knot was out and his back wasn't so tense. I stopped massaging him and went back to rubbing his back.

"Are you awake?" I asked.

He nodded, "Mmhmm."

He laid there for a few minutes before slowly pulling himself up. I bit my lip, trying to figure out what to say.

"Am I allowed to go home today?" He asked.

"I don't know, I mean you look fine." I replied, getting out of the bed.

"But I don't act it." He whispered.

I sighed and looked at him, "They won't keep you here because you're still...uh...not yourself. Most likely you'll be sent home and I'll look after you."

He nodded silently before laying back down. I shook my head and went to grab him breakfast. When I returned he was on my phone, searching something up. When I kept trying to peek at it he would hide it and give me an innocent look.

I folded my arms over my chest and narrowed my eyes.

"What are you looking up?" I asked.

He smiled and looked away, "Nothing."

"Oh, really? Then let me see my phone."

He bit his lip before turning off my phone and handing it to me. I rolled my eyes and turned it back on. As it turned on I looked at him.

"Why are you smirking?" I questioned.

He shrugged and looked away again. I sighed and look back down at my phone, only to scream and drop it. I looked up as Achilles burst out laughing.

"Why did you make my background that woman thing from MAMA? I hate that movie!" I shrieked.

He continued laughing, "Because I was bored and I missed messing with you..."

I blinked before sighing, I grabbed my phone and walked over to him. I kissed him on the cheek.

"And I missed this side of you." I whispered sadly.

He sighed and nodded, he then gently grabbed my jaw.

"I actually feel better today, but that guilt is still there and...uh...something else."

"Something else?"

He clenched his jaw and looked down, "Every time I work up the courage to tell you it just suddenly disappears."

"Courage to tell me what? You can tell me anything, Achilles. I'm your mate and future wife." I urged him, sitting down.

"I know that, but it's like there's a wall there. I'm afraid to tell you."

I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him close to me.

"I can wait." I whispered.