Chapter 52: Sweetest Nightmare

Elena Davis’s pov,

I looked at the empty pillow beside me, and the coldness of the mattress under my palm almost moist my eyes. I don’t know, should I be happy to confess my love to him or cry because it’s his wedding day? My life will remain empty like this cold leftover bed for the rest of life, but I will not allow him to touch me anymore.

He will definitely try his best to keep me pinned against his chest naked, but I love him so much that I can’t allow him to betray his wife. I shivered, imagining the future whenever they both came in front of me as a couple.

My life has turned upside down. I want to leave, but he will not let me. I want to stay away from him, but my heart won’t allow it. What should I do? Every time I breathe, it feels like I am not me anymore. I don’t know whose body belongs to which I lay naked, filled with the teeth and finger marks carrying over every part of her body? It was my fault to allow him to let him possess my soul and consciousness.

I got up in the cold shower, trying to wash away my sins with the flow of water, but was I lucky enough? Naaa. My love for him made me the greatest sinner, but was it my fault I fell for him? The mafia king?

The cold shower was ineffective. I was angry, mad at myself. Even knowing he will marry his love Aria, I couldn’t stop loving him more. Why did his marriage with another girl don't subside my love for him? How can I? He filled me with himself with every fiber of my soul up to such a level, hating him will take my life.

I walked out, pitying myself, kneeling in front of my emotions, ignoring my self respect completely. I felt empty in my heart, yet the figure from the mirror showcased how much power I gave him. The flashbacks of last night convinced my poor heart that he loves me too, but my mind overruled every petition of my heart.

My soul knew, it’s not me the only one who is in love, but does he even know he loves me, too? I smirked at my thought and wiped the tear drop rolled down the cheek while dressing up in a simple dress. If he knew, he would have confessed his feelings to me, not taken the challenge to prove I love him.

My lip struggled to lift upward when I yelled how much I love him. He listened keenly, securing me in his hands as if he was afraid to lose me. I saw the tenderness in his eyes as he got to know the ultimate truth of the universe. He smiled genuinely, as if he had reached the highest peak of spirituality.

The knock on the door shook my paradise. I walked out of the bathroom, watching a maid prepare breakfast for me. There was sadness surrounding her, the hidden pity for me.

“Capo Signorina (lady boss), please have breakfast. Capo (boss) ordered.” Her tone was respectful, yet it slashed my heart. How pathetic to listen. His servants and men call me as equal as him. No one lifts their gaze at me even on the day he went to marry someone else.

I don’t know why he chose to marry her, but he wasn’t forced at all. He said, he can do anything to keep me with him, and the marriage with another girl is the smallest thing to ask. It is so much easier to read his heart than his mind, his words and heart rate never synchronize with each other.

The smell of egg was hitting my head. I kept the plate far away from me and only picked up the coffee mug. Nothing was palpable today.

“Capo Signorina, Elder Capo has requested your presence.” Her voice surprised me. His father demanded my presence. He never did it before.

I agreed, not wanting to disrespect him. I followed her out of the room where Scab was standing alert, keeping his finger on the trigger. He was hesitant to let me step outside the room, but his face bloomed suddenly, hearing someone murmur in his earpiece.

“Please, come with me. I will drop you.” What happened suddenly was that his mood changed so drastically.

He looked in a hurry and had constant bright eyes all the time throughout the drive. My mind was constantly drifting towards the marriage of Arius. He must have finished his ceremony, and I had lost him forever. It was quite unbelievable to me, the man who caged me in his arms last night peppered kisses until I drifted to sleep is no longer mine.

The white building in front of me clutched my heart. It was the church. Has he brought me to be part of his marriage? I kept calm. I have the rest of my life, so then how does it matter to be part of it? He drove to the back side of the church and stopped the car.

“Why back door?” I got down confused, but the moment I turned my gaze to the side, I realized. The huge part of the front wall had collapsed, shattering the broken bricks all over the place. Sab held his head low, and I understood. I don’t need to know what happened here.

As I used to ignore my surrounding abnormalities, he guided me from the back door through a secluded corridor which opened in front of the huge wooden door. A weird white fume was slightly lingering over the floor.

My heart beat rose, witnessing the metallic smell of blood mixed in the air. The floor was covered in bullet shells and the pool of blood went from place to place. I held my dress tight, pressing my lips tight not to react at all.

“What happened here, Sab?” He turned to look at me. His hands were on the handle of the door, ready to push it open.

“Capo was bored, so he had some target practice.” My breath hitched at his reply. It is so obvious to know this place was attacked, but the ease on his face challenged me to buy my brain. He smirked at his response and pushed the door wide open.

I forget to breathe watching the exact depiction of hell in front of me. Everything was destroyed. A pile of dead bodies was laying at the corner, while a few of his men dragged the remaining bodies to collect. My brain froze. I didn’t know how to react when my eyes landed on the body in a white dress.

Her forehead was bleeding, yet her eyes screamed innocence. Was she Aria? A water gathered in my eyes, my Arius loved her and she was no more to be around him. My Arius must be in so much pain.

“Snowflake?” A surprised voice of Arius lifted my head. I felt as if someone had stabbed me. He had a shine in his eyes. There wasn’t any kind of pain, as if the girl laying in front of him doesn’t matter to him at all. The air became suffocative, the blood dripping from his forehead.

Arius ran over me, stepping over her dead body and hugged me tight, but my eyes didn’t leave her.

“Arius, hurry. Complete the contract.” His father’s voice boomed in the church. What was talking about? He was getting impatient and stood up from his seat. Alex tried to interrupt him, but his raised hand was enough to shut her up. Nicole and Marc were watching me with their serious faces. There was no emotion showcased at all.

“Father, there is no need. He came here, and it will only-” Arius broke the hug, and turned to convince his father about something, but the way his father looked at his watch stunned Arius. He jerked at me and the color of his face drained. Droplets of sweats gathered over his forehead.

“Fath-” Nicole put hand over the mouth of Alex. She was startled and struggling to push Nicole away from her. Her eyes were widened in shock, and she was staring at me.

“Snowflake, I know we haven’t talked about this before-” He cupped my face in his hand, wrapping his other hand around my waist. He closed his eyes and took an enormous lump of air filling his lungs.

“Let’s get married.” My mouth dropped at his words. I couldn’t believe he said that. The girl he loved was shot dead in front of him, yet he said those words crossing her dead body in her wedding dress in front of the cross.

There was hope, excitement and a genuine smile on his face, which shook me awake.

“NO, I don’t want to marry you.” The pain stuck in my heart. He froze for a second, staring at me with shock before his eyes turned bloodshot red and he held my waist in his death grip.