Chapter 36

Adwitiya's pov..

I am not mad right? Still why he was telling me to consult psychotherapist! The mistake was mine that I choose to share my problems with him. I thought he was mine friend and here he was tagging me as a mad who needs therapy..

I am not mad I yelled uncountable times in my mind..

"I thought you are mine friend rahul and here you are tagging me as a mad girl who needs therapy" I uttered my voice soft as stared down at my nails.

"What if I say Rahul isn't saying anything wrong?" My eyes snapped at the direction to found Adhyansh standing there leaning his head against the wall..

Yeh ladka kab aaya? Nevermind

"So now even you are agreeing with Rahul? Do I look like a mad" I freaked out.. "You want to tag me as a mad bitch because you are done with me so let me tell you Adhyansh Aneja even I am done with you so let's just free each other from this unwanted relationship" I further yelled my eyes welling up with fresh tears..

"I should leave" I heard Rahul saying which made me more angry "Yes Rahul you should leave because these days you are agreeing with Adhyansh and I hate you so much for this" Staring at my tears strained face for few seconds and comprehending my harsh words rahul walked out leaving me alone with Adhyansh..

I was about to lashed out on Adhyansh when I heard him requesting "Can we just sit and talk without fight please" His voice was soft and full of emotions..

Taking a deep breath I calmed myself down and sat on the couch of my living room and Adhyansh sat on his knees and held my hand "Adwitiya do you love me?" I was taken aback by his words and my eyes eyes met his.. I was tongue tied "Yes or no just say it" I heard him whispering again..

My traitor tears started rolling down from my cheeks what was happening with me? Why I was being an emotional bitch these days? Why I was crying then and now?

Adhyansh's pov..

"I love you Adhyansh I do but what if I say I don't want you now? I mean I forgive you I see my future with you but I am not able to forget what had happened? I don't know I am conf..used I said I moved on but I just coul.mdn't I fucking can't mov.e on Adh..yansh I am being pat.mhetic I am getti..ng mad" Should I laugh or cry? The girl whom I loved and still loves confessed her love for me again but? She didn't want me! She wasn't able to move on! She wanted future with me still she was stuck at the past..

"Neither you are pathetic nor you are mad" my hand rose up to cup her tears strained cheeks.. There was a time all I wanted her to cry and now her tears were hurting me in most worst way...

"You know when Aarna was suffering she also consulted psychotherapist for herself" I began caressing her hair in soothing way messaging her scalp.. "I am not mad Adhyansh" She whispered the same thing again sniffing a little..

"You aren't mad Adwitiya but atleast consult a psychotherapist you can share everything with her Adwitiya what you want and what you don't? And she will going to help you in all the means Adwitiya she will going to take you out of all the confusions" I tried to make her understand..

She gaped at my face her eyes were full of confusion "She will help you Adwitiya please meet her atleast once and if you don't like then I won't going to force you again" I literally wanted her to meet with psychotherapist once because I knew she would going to help my Adwitiya..

"Please" I whispered against my fingers tucking her hair strands behind her ear "Fine" I heard her mumbling lowly which made me smile..

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"She is so broken" I heard rahul whispering as he passed me a cigarette which I accepted "And now you will going to blame me again for it" I chuckled as I fished out my lighter lighting it up..

"Surely you are the one to be blamed but we can't change the fact that she still loves you" He took the lighter from me lightning one of the destruction stick for himself..

"That's where I went lucky" I chuckled puffing the cigarette.. "Indeed that's the only plus point of yours" He agreed and the smile etched on my lips...

Me talking with Rahul was one of the unexpected thing but still here I was talking to him calmly..

Because?

He loves the same girl I love.. The difference was I was the lucky one because Rahul's love was one sided but mine wasn't.. Adwitiya loves me more than I love her there was no doubt in that... I've said various bad words to Rahul and even punched him in anger but one thing I knew that His love for Adwitiya was genuine and pure and before the love he cared for her way to much that's why he himself approached me to talk about Adwitiya..

Flashback start..

"RAHUL KAPOOR in my office wow for sure I don't like your presence here" I mocked leaning my head back.. "I don't like your presence as well Adhyansh but I am here to talk about something important" His voice was serious still I rolled my eyes at him ughh

"Say and leave" I uttered nodding my head "Look Adwitiya loves you way to much and that's your plus point but you are also the reason behind her sorrow" I was taken aback by his words and anger rushed through my veins..

"Don't poke your nose in my and Adwitiya's matter Rahul" I warned my eyes glaring at him hard.. "If you think I am poking my nose here then it's fine but yeah she is breaking bit by bit I care for her and love her so choose to inform you about this" This time he yelled..

And it lead to our serious conversation about Adwitiya and from that I knew Rahul had genuine feelings for Adwitiya but sorry boy she was, is and will always be mine..

Flashback end..

"Why are you helping me Rahul? What's your motive behind this?" I asked dumping the cigarette in Ashtray.. "I am not helping you Adhyansh I just want Adwitiya to be happy and her happiness is with you" I heard him saying..

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Adwitiya's pov..

"Let's go now we have an appointment with Mrs Singh in an hour" I heard Adhyansh saying as soon as I walked out of my bedroom..I didn't want to meet anyone but still I was going because Adhyansh told me to give it a try..

I nodded at him "All the best Adwitiya" Aarna said who was sitting silently on the couch.. "Aarna please take care of dad"

"She will Adwitiya now let's go" Adhyansh grasped my wrist as we walked out of my dad's house only to came face to face with Rahul who was stepping inside his apartment..

He stared at me for few seconds and guilt washed over me I shouted at him yesterday without any of his fault. he toh was trying to make me understand "Rahul" I called him..

"I am sorry I didn't mean to shout at you yesterday I was little disturbed" I apologized.. "You don't need to apologize Adwitiya it's alright" I smiled knowing my friend wasn't angry on me..

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"Hii Ridhi Singh" The old lady introduced shaking hands with me "Adwitiya" I uttered..

"Well Mr Aneja now you can leave I want to talk with her alone" I heard her saying to Adhyansh who was standing silently..

Staring at me he nodded then left..

"Sit Adwitiya" I awkwardly sat on the couch and she herself squatted down on the other end of the couch..

"Make yourself comfortable Adwitiya" She softly said while I took a deep breath..

"So tell me what are you studying? I mean which stream?" She tried to make a conversation.. "Just done with B.com" I answered straightly.. "So you want to study more?" She further interrogated.. "Yes I want to do MBA"

"That's great" She sighed out.. "Look Adwitiya I don't know you personally and it's the first time I am meeting with you .. thou I know little bit about your confusion Adhyansh and Rahul already told me about it but I want to know it from you so that I can help you and trust me I won't judge" She said it in a go..

"Firstly I didn't want to come here but Adhyansh force" I began "What relationship you shared with Adhyansh?"

"He is my husband" it wouldn't take me seconds to answer her question "Husband" She nodded "But as far as I know you wants to divorce him"

"No" I shook my head "I wanted to but now I don't want it we've sorted out" I further said..

"You are lying" I was taken aback "You are lying Adwitiya you still wants to divorce him say it" she went on making me shocked..

"No no I love him all I see my future with him only" I defended myself.. He was the only one for me I didn't want anyone in my life other than him..

"I am not talking about love or your future we are talking about your present what you want now? I am not questioning your love I just want answer about do you want to divorce him or not?" Her question was straight which made my tongue tied..

What I want? Why I was so confused

"I don't kn..ow" I whispered out as my voice broke "I don't know I am confuse I can't forget my past I am not able to move on this all is so confusing" I babbled shaking my head my hands clutching my hair..

"Calm down and have some water" She passed me a sealed bottle.. Opening it I gulped the water taking a deep breath..

"Whom do you hate so much in this world Adwitiya?" Mrs Singh asked again "Ronit and Divyank" My answer was quick yet curt..

"Who is Divyank?" She went on.. Okay Adwitiya you have to tell her she wouldn't going to judge you she would help you taking a deep breath I answered "He was the boy I was in relationship with"

"Did you love him?" And another question bombarded on me "Tell me everything from first so that I can help" She further said her voice was calm and polite..

"He was my senior and another spoilt brat of the college I had a crush on him and then he proposed me I was on cloud nine as he was one of the hottest boy of college I agreed and I thought I fell in love with him but it wasn't love I was just attracted" I stopped and gulp the water again "He didn't love me he loved my body I was just a bet to him and then he ra..pe--" I broke into tears again..

"It's okay to cry" She uttered passing me the tissues.."We are done for today we will talk further in the next session" She announced.. "I hope you will come to the next session" I nodded..

Atleast it wasn't as bad as I was thinking..

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"So how's your session" Adhyansh began his interrogation as he drove off his eyes fixated on the road.. "It was fine" I answered looking out of the window..

"Open the glove compartment there is something for you" I heard him saying  "fine" I opened to found dark chocolate which made my lips broke into a wide smile..

"Thank you Adhyansh" I thanked him unwrapping the dark chocolate.. "Anything for you" I heard him saying as I took a bite of my favourite chocolate savouring the taste..

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