Chapter 37

Second session..

"I am glad that you come for another session" I smiled and sat down after shaking hands with her..

"So tell me how are you doing?" She questioned "As usual trying to escape from everything"

"Instead of escaping try to face it. It will make you strong"  She comforted passing me her smile which reflects only positivity..

"So let's start from where we end it" She declared rubbing her hands "Are you comfortable enough to tell me everything?" I nodded in yes.. "Go ahead then"

"So Divyank raped you?" She questioned.."I never wanted my first time like that but he forced me and manipulated me in such way that I gave in I cried I shouted but he didn't stop when he was done he said it was meant to be happen like this and first time was always painful and he loves me and I was fool enough to believe in him I thought maybe I was overreacting because my friends always used to tell me how happy they were with their partners I used to be so dumb"

"And then finally he show his true colours and told me that I was just a bet to him and he even slapped me that day" I completed and my eyes welling up again..

"Adwitiya did Adhyansh ever force you like Divyank? Or maybe tried to manipulate you for sex" I heard her another question and instantly shook my head in no "Never! My consent was there every time but still there was thought in my mind that I was doing wrong still I didn't stop myself I wanted it" I confessed truthfully!

"Did you ever regret of being intimate with your spouse" I heard her questioning me..

"I hated myself because I thought he was using me and somewhere he did use me"

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Adhyansh's pov..

After playing with Yuvaan and Yuvika I thought to hit the gym suddenly something striked in my mind.. Ohh shitt it was 20th of the month means Adwitiya's periods date.. I quickly grabbed my car keys phone, wallet and made my way out of the mansion..

After grabbing tampons and pads from the medical store I got dark chocolates and tub of mint choco chip ice cream for her and drove to her apartment..

I rang the doorbell waiting for her to open the door and she did after a min "Hiii" She wasn't expecting me I could say it by seeing her face..

"Hii may I come in?" She nodded and gave me the space to walk in "Woh actually it's your periods date na so I got few bars of dark chocolates, tub of ice cream and ofcourse the main thing pads and tampons" She smiled when I said everything in a go..

Thou the smile was small still my girl was glowing and how..

"Wait let me put this ice cream and chocolates in fridge otherwise it will melt" I made my way to the kitchen stuffing the ice cream and chocolates in the fridge..

I turned only to get engulfed in a hug I was taken aback by her gesture and stood rooted feeling her face pressed against my chest and arms wrapped around my back.. The sudden peace engulfed in me feeling her in my arms as my arms wrapped around her..

Neither of us spoke anything it was just us not Adhyansh and Adwitiya it was Adwitiya and Adhyansh our heart beating each to each with a peaceful silence engulfing us.. I knew she could hear my heartbeat as her ear was just above my heart..

"Thank you so much" I heard her whispering as she looked up at me without breaking the hug.. "You don't need to" I tucked her hair strands behind her air before kissing her forhead..

"Are you hungry? Did you had anything from  morning?" I further interrogated my eyes gazing at my young beauty "Yes I drank bournvita" I frowned at her answer..

"Seriously bournvita? Usse kiska peth bharta hai" I asked and she pouted Owwhh how much I wanted to kiss her but controlled myself bacchi dar jayegi..

"I'll cook your favourite pasta okay? Just give me few mins" I said and turned opening the kitchen cabinet as I searched a packet of pasta..

"Adhyansh I am not hungry" She said making me roll my eyes "Yes you are hungry" I took out the packet of pasta and started my job..

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"Here have it" I brought the spoonful of pasta closer to her lips and she had it which made me smile..

Please Adwitiya ke Ayyiappa make her happy and chirpy like before..

"Tum bhi khalo" she whispered as she  fed me back and just then I realised I was hungry as well and from morning I just have a two cups of coffee..

"Is it aching do you want painkillers?" I asked again when she leaned against my chest closing her eyes "No I am fine" She mumbled staring at me and I hummed caressing her hair..

"Now why are you looking at me like that?" I asked when I saw her staring at my face intently her bottom lip was between her teeth and then everything went blank when I felt her lips capturing mine..

Fuck it. It's a dream I guess yes it must be dream only no wait she was kissing me.. My girl was kissing me.. Damnnn Adwitiya Mishra and her period hormones..

I pulled back making her gasp in frustration.. "Calm down my lady" My palm grasped her cheeks as I rubbed her lower lip and her breath ragged.. Dammnnnn How much I wanted to pinned her down on the bed and have my ways with her but I couldn't.. SHE IS ON HER FUCKING DAMN PERIODS..

"Kiss me" She demanded leaning close to me her arms wrapped around my neck.. Pulling her on my lap carefully I placed my lips on her moving my lips softly but she took me off guard dominating the kiss her fingers pulling my hair hard which made me moan in her mouth.I let her do everything she wanted feeling her tongue, teeth and lips having it ways with mine while my fingers lazily slipped inside her top as I felt the skin of her waist under my fingertips..

She broke the kiss for few seconds to catch some breath then slammed her lips on mine this time with more passion oh my wild cat.. Arre nahi yeh toh Adhyansh Aneja ki sherni hai.. (Aahaa no she is Adhyansh Aneja's tigress)

My hands were busy feeling her curves and I pulled back as we breathed heavily.."Breathe" I whispered rubbing her back to calm her down..

"Adhyansh" I literally shivered at her voice and the way she called me.. It was so seductive..

"Adwi.tiya we can't" I protested when her lips met my jaw migrating down to my neck damnn her lips felt so soo soo good on my skin.. My woman is on action today.. "It's not like we'll going to fuck each other" I heard her whispering against my skin her tongue stuck out to lick my neck enough to illicit another moan from my lips..Her teeth grazed my skin marking me hers and I let her do what she wanted..

"Now it's my turn" I clutched her hair not so tightly to hurt her and latched my lips to her neck placing kisses there.. Her fingers threaded with my hair as she tilt her head providing me better access of her skin to worshipped..

"Damnnn I miss this" I let out a deep sigh as my lips migrated down to her collarbone and my fingers dragged the straps of her top down.. "Adhyanshhhhh" She winced then moaned when I marked her mine giving her a hickey..

My tongue flicked around it to ease her pain and her moans filled my ear..

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Adwitiya's pov..

"I never wanted a baby but when I get to know that I was pregnant I went so harsh on myself and said so many bad words to my baby which I am still regretting because I was the one to be blamed that my baby is no more" As much as tried to forget about the baby I just couldn't and the guilt was eating me from inside..

What if I didn't drink the coffee that night? Then my angel would still be alive inside of me!

"It's ok don't be so harsh on yourself it was meant to be happen in that way that's why it happens" She said softly caressing my hair like I was a baby to her "God has better plans for you" she further added..

"So Rahul proposed you" I heard Mrs Singh asking me.. "He did but I don't have any such feelings for him he is my bestie and he'll always be but loving him is the another thing which isn't possible" I answered clearly..

"Loving him is the another thing okay" She repeated my words "What if it's Adhyansh in the place of Rahul and what If he proposed you about to come to back to his life like starting everything from the fresh so what would be your answer" I shifted uncomfortably on the seat..

"Come on answer me after all you love him" She nudged making me let out a defeated sigh.. "I guess I am mentally ill because I still don't know what I fucking want in my life.. Adhyansh is my life but still there is thought in my mind like what if he hurt me again and leave me alone! He loves me more than I love him but I am not able to bring myself to take a forward step in our relationship and at this point I am hurting Adhyansh as well I just don't what is happening with me" I poured my heart out with tears rolling down from my cheeks..

"I am glad that you are sharing your problems with me" She passed me the tissues to wipe my eyes and nose..

"Look Adwitiya before you love someone learn to love yourself because self love is way way way more important in life! Don't be so harsh on yourself don't run to make others happy, for few moments don't think about Adhyansh, Rahul or your dad think what you want and need" She tried to make me understand but I took her words in a wrong way!

"What if they all leave me because I am just so selfish" I mumbled with my trembled lips "I didn't even see my mom she left me after giving me birth I am the bad omen I killed my child and what if I stop talking with Adhyansh vand Rahul and they leave me so I'll be alone right? Then I wouldn't have anyone to talk even dad isn't fine" I held my head muttering everything which was eating me from inside..

"Adhyansh knows the consequences still he took you to me! Rahul knows you woudn't going to love him back still he went with you to the building which caught fire. Do you think they will leave you? Girl you are so lucky that there are two boys who are madly in love with you" She said patting my head..

"Ok leave boys because they can be toxic sometimes" She chuckled and it made me chuckle in tears.. "You are a queen so as all the women's and one thing it's not like you need any boys, love, or friend in life, stop depending on others if you think it's you are being selfish then fine be selfish for your self" and she went on putting some senses in me..

"Do what you heart wants stop thinking about your future and try to forget the bad phase of your past and enjoy your present"

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2 weeks later..

Three words only three words were enough to break him.. To shatter his heart into pieces. He knew she would going to say but then there was little hope inside him maybe like maybe she would going to change her decision and came running into his arms forgetting everything! Forgetting their worst past.. Forgetting what he did with her! But Naah this was real life and not reel.

"I WANT DIVORCE" and it was enough. But he knew that her happiness was her top most priority her and for her happiness he could do anything..

He was expecting her to say that! He knew from the first that she wanted divorce.. The smile etched on his lips the type of smile which did reach to his eyes and it fills with pride! She didn't stutter today! There was a confidence in her voice. Her face doesn't have confusion. She was sure what she wanted . His girl was changing and this time for good..She didn't beg, it wasn't a plea she stated with her head high. She stated staring deep into his eyes..

"I've already talked with the lawyer about it they gave me 2 months time which exceed but this time no problem will arise the process of divorcing will be smooth" He stated and turned to other side as he felt his eyes watering! He didn't want to cry and make his girl weak she deserves all the happiness of the world and if she wanted divorce then be with it this way!

He just wanted her happiness and if it wasn't with him then without him..

"I hope you don't have any problem with that" He heard her saying again..

He turned after blinking away his tears and clearing his throat.. His eyes staring at her confident form oh how much he wanted to yell at her face that he had problem he didn't want to let her go, he didn't want this divorce to happen but he had to for her for her HAPPINESS!

"Ofcourse I don't because I know it was meant to be happen in this way only" He stated his voice was firm and deep..

"I know I owe you an explanation Adhyansh I--" He chosed to interrupt in between not wanting to listen that She fell out of love and she didn't love him anymore he knew those words going to break him and what if he had breakdown infront of his girl who just recovered from all the mess of her life surely it would going to affect her again which he didn't want "No Adwi.tiya" He cleared his throat again as he felt his voice breaking "You don't owe me any explanation it's your life you have all rights to it even I think it's better if we part our ways" He further continued...

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