Chapter 55: Mockery and Apologies.

KIKI.

After my discussion with Rose earlier, I might hold onto the tiniest hope I could get with her words. I could have started fantasizing about it. About everything and how it would be. I might have started it.

But when those words escaped Fifi’s lips minutes ago, my whole world came crashing down, figuratively. Every little strand of hope I had held onto from Rose’s words earlier, came cutting off from me and I didn’t know how to feel. I didn’t know what I was supposed to think with those words.

It was as though Fifi knew what we had done like she knew I was going crazy for Gigi in my head, that we had almost had sex. That we had kissed for minutes. It was like she knew all that so she decided to claim her territory. She marked it with that protective mocking glance she threw me, making everything in me turn to shreds.

She was mocking me!

I met Gigi’s eyes. I still couldn’t read the expression he had on. But he didn’t look too pleased to discover that I knew. I didn’t try to cover up my hurt too. I let him see what he had done to me.

Betrayal!

My mind screamed at him as I felt tears sting my eyes. I had thought we could be something together. I guess I was wrong. I was wrong.

But why did this have to happen to me?

Why was it that I always ended up betrayed? What was it with me that a man just couldn’t stay with me without hurting me, why? What was going on?

Gigi had led me on. My lips trembled at the thought. He had made me believe that we could be more. It was almost like he had used me. He had wanted to use me to satisfy his sexual urge.

Just like Julian.

I shut my eyes for a second letting the hurt consume me. My heart was hurting badly like it had been broken over and over again. It was wrenching.

But I couldn’t help but think about why he had to do that to me. I couldn’t help but think If he was always such a cheat. A man who couldn’t stay glued to one woman. A man who always scourge for more people to satisfy his urges even when they were engaged or married.

Just like Julian had done.

But how, how had I concluded that he could want me for it to hurt this much? Just how? I was thinking we could be something more when I wasn’t going to be more than a fuckbody in his life. How cruel could he be?

So everything…all the connections and tension between us…had they all been felt by me alone? Had I only been the one that felt them? Was this one-sided? Everything I felt?

Had I imagined them? Had I imagined that he was ever going to like him as much as I like him? Had I imagined everything that happened between us or I had just been plain ignorant?

My lips quivered for answers.

Rose stepped up closer and squeezed my head gently. That little push made me feel at ease a little. She could sense my thoughts. “You are not alone.” She whispered.

Her voice and words were everything I needed to pull myself together. It was everything I had. So, I pushed up my spine to relax.

“Erm, Fifi.” Giovanni’s voice made my head snap towards him.

“Yes, love,” Fifi replied still grinning and I was tempted to wipe that grin off her beautiful face.

“Let her go. I don’t know what may have caused an issue between you two to need you to lock her up but let her go. She is my employee.” He told her. Everyone watched them. Fifi frowned.

“But Gigs, I told you. ” She frowned harder. Then, she turned towards me, her frown intensifying. “This…” She eyed me, her eyes raking me over like she was disgusted. “ Wretched scumbag here harassed me. She tried to be who she is not. She was claiming to know me and I don’t want to be known by someone like her,” She frowned.

“I know you!” I yelled, not liking how she was twisting the whole issue. Rose held my hand.

“See!” Fifi exclaimed as I had just proven her point. “She’s been on like that. And when I didn’t agree with her claims, she slapped me. Can you imagine her guts, love?” She was almost screaming.

“Calm down, Fifi.” Giovanni groaned.

“I won’t calm down! This Idiot harassed me. Don’t ask me to calm down. She deserves to be locked up.” She fueled the fire.

“And you deserve to have your head checked in the psychiatry,” I yelled not having it again.

Fifi stomped her feet in anger, looking up at Giovanni to reason with her.

“Erm Kiki, I would appreciate it if you don’t say anything again.” He told me.

Wow.

The tears stung my eyes even more.

“I will say whatever I want to.” I fire back, hurt.

“Then you would have to handle this yourself.” His reply was instantaneous and harsh. It made me almost cry.

“Just let me lock her up!” Fifi fumed.

“Fifi, you have to calm down. She is my employee. I really can’t allow that. You know what, if she apologizes will you let her go?” He negotiated.

Fifi pretended to think about the offer for a while, tapping her foot on the floor in a slow rhythm.

“Okay.” She said after a brief silence. Then she was quick to add. “But only because you are involved.” Gigi nodded.

Rose tightened her hold on my hand to assure me. At that moment, I just wanted to get out of the station. I was starting to feel suffocated.

“I’m sorry!” I almost snapped but I didn’t. Instead, my tone had an edge to it. Gigi sighed and looked at Fifi. Fifi nodded, eyeing me. I didn’t wait to say thank you, I turned around and proceeded to walk out of the station.

I just realized that I had been taking things too far. I was not dating him so I had no claim over him. I was just acting impulsive over our one-time sex shit and crush that was probably one-sided. So, maybe this was the smack I needed to get back on track and focus on what I was supposed to be doing.

Making money!