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"Sherin, you're here, sit down first. It's hot in there and it looks like they'll arrive later." I looked at Trevor next to me when he spoke. He tapped the space next to him where he wanted me to sit.

Igave him a small smile before walking closer and sitting next to him. My eyes were a little squinted due to the glaring rays of the sun.

"Where are they now?" I asked after sitting down. I looked around and saw the students walking towards their different destinations.

"The others are still in the library. The others are still eating." Trevor answered me and grabbed something from his pocket. I just looked there until I saw the black handkerchief.

He gently touched my forehead to dry the sweat caused by the hot and humid weather.

"We can stay in my car while we wait for them to cool you down. It's too hot in here." Trevor offered me. I want to agree to his offer but I hesitate because I have something to do at this time. Because if I stay in his car, it will be difficult for me to leave.

I still can't get over what happened to me earlier in the mansion. I was looking for my pills on my kit but I couldn't find them.

I can't find it and I doubt I've used it because if it's empty... The container will be there but nothing. At least my mat of pills is gone.

I had sex with Cedrick last night. He didn't use condoms just like before. It was natural. That was our set up. He never used a condom or any kind of protection every time we went to bed. So that's all I'm nervous about now. I haven't taken pills and this can't happen... I can't get pregnant out of nowhere.

I know Cedrick is not responsible for me.

I glanced at Trevor next to me and I just breathed a sigh of relief when I thought he didn't notice how strange I was acting right now. He was also deep in thought while looking into the distance and it looked like we were both troubled.

I looked around. Trying to find a drug store where I can buy pills. I'm disgusted with myself because why did I just think of that now? Why did I just now remember that I hadn't taken pills when Cedrick was gone and he finished taking me here to the university?

I left my cellphone at home so I couldn't contact him. I wanted to tell him to buy me some pills but on the other hand I was too shy. He might say that this is also something that I am burdening him with.

Like, haler, we both enjoyed that heat, what. I'm not the only one so he should follow me because if he doesn't want to... He will become a father. His youth will be lost.

I swallowed saliva with too much pressure and simply held my stomach. I felt it and touched it.

No, Cedrick and I can't come together. I wasn't ready to feel the child kicking inside me. I'm still studying and I don't want it to interfere with the year I'm spending here.

And most of all... I also don't want the child I'm carrying to be from Cedrick. Maybe if that happens he will kill me because of my not being careful. Being a bachelor is good for him. And I don't think having a family was ever planned.

I stood up without a word. "Where are you going?" I stopped in my tracks when Trevor asked.

I kept biting my lower lip because of nervousness and embarrassment. I held the hem of my blouse tightly before turning to him and smiling lightly, that smile I was sure he wouldn't doubt. "At the drugstore, just buy something." I said and was about to walk again but the man spoke again.

"Does something hurt you? I'll just buy it." Trevor volunteered which made my eyes grow big. I shook my head instantly, I can't imagine him buying me pills for the sperm he didn't even send to me. So why should I buy him? I will really strangle Cedrick. He blew it all out of me last night, and I hope it moves slowly inside me because I'm not ready to be a mother yet.

Cedrick's sperm please. Don't try to live inside me. It's not happy with me. I assure you that. You will only regret it.

"Or... I'll just go with you." Trevor added that I asked him immediately.

"Huh? Nah, there's no need. I can handle it. My head doesn't hurt. I'll just buy Enervon, I feel like I'm lethargic." I tried to give a smile even though the truth was that I was already feeling guilty inside. Trevor was too good to lie to me but there was nothing else I could do.

"Are you sure?" Trevor.

"Yes." my answer.

"Come with me." Male persistence.

"Nevermind." I'm against it.

In the end... Trevor didn't force me to go with him anymore so that's all I could do to ease my breathing. I went to the drugstore alone and then returned to the place where I left Trevor earlier.

I have also taken contraceptive pills so all my fears have disappeared. Cedrick will never be a father and we will never have children.

I fixed my blouse before approaching the group of people where Trevor and I were sitting earlier. He was covered by our standing group mates because he was sitting, it was difficult for me to see him. I went straight until I got close to him. When I went to his place, he held my hand, that's why I just smiled and stared at his face.

We both stared, and I could see the worry on his face. "Are you okay?" His voice is full of tenderness.

I nodded. "Sure. I was fine a while ago." my answer.

"Have you taken the vitamins?" he asked like my boyfriend worried about my state.

My smile grew sweeter. "Yes. It's over." I said while smiling and sitting next to him, very close, the way our arms were already rubbing. And I admit it's very stylish and very tough. Just enough to attract my sleepy heart.

I watched my blocmates talking. We are four women in a group and five men, we plan to do a project at Sun's house, one of our male blockmates who is rich so all expenses are covered by him.

They were all couples, Trevor, Sun, and I think I was the only one who wasn't there. Those remaining four girls and boys? They have romantic relationships themselves. So I don't wonder why it took us so long to leave.

The couples are still talking that you thought would never see each other tomorrow, there are so many sparks around me.

"That's enough. You'll be at my condo at eleven." Sun is extra that we raised. Honestly speaking, there is no eleven here as it is according to him, they are just talking but you can see that they are in love with each other. I was in agony while snorting. That's them.

"Arat. You just have to fit in the car. I don't want to go back. It's a waste of gas." Sun condition.

"Mae is mine." said Renzo, Mae's boyfriend.

"Of course Jen is mine," Suneul immediately claimed. I started to wince.

He and his girlfriend took them. I wish I could just keep going in my mind. What is this feeling like? That... Your boyfriend can make you proud of all the people. That other people also claim you as theirs in a good and proper way.

"Eula, you're here," Kurt patted his lap, signaling that Sila would sit there later when we got into the car. My lips formed a downward smile. What am I? Commute?

"Sherin is mine." It was like suddenly my chest beat faster as if talking to a doctor when Trevor spoke, claiming me. Our eyes met and I was still shocked. "Is that okay with you Sherin?" Trevor asked softly.

I stared at his face before I answered him. It's not because I'm having second thoughts but... I feel like I'm at a loss for words to say what he mentioned. It was such a bomb... puking butterflies and they ran through me.

Trevor has always filled the gaps and spaces in my heart.

"Sherin?" Trevor was waving in front of me, I must have been stunned by this.

"Uh, hmm, sure." I answered, still stuttering.

People around me screamed.

"Ahuh! That's it! I thought you would even reject the first love team in the room." Kurt was teasing us and I just laughed at him.

"Why don't you answer Trevor, Sherin?" I turned to Mae.

"Renzo is just my boyfriend, you and Trevor still don't have a fucking label." He added that my heart was beating very hard.

I couldn't answer them as well as look them all straight in the eyes. I know at this time Trevor is also tickling my reaction. Trevor likes me. And I know he was wanting for an answer he was craving for a very long time from now. But I can never really allow him even if I want to.

Trevor is the man of my dreams. He always fulfills all my fantasies. He testifies to all my beautiful dreams. So... If your reasons are enough for me to meet him, I still won't be able to do it... Because never... that will never happen... He will never be tied to me. I will never be tied to him.

"That's enough. Let's go." Trevor and got into the car first.

They entered and bumped into their boyfriend. When they were all settled, I followed, Trevor was ready. I was still ashamed to sit in his shelter. When I put my seat on his thigh, he then grabbed my waist so I wouldn't lose my balance if the car took a turn.

My head was bent a little because Sun's car was small, I could reach the roof. "You're still dumb," Trevor said.

I immediately followed and as soon as I slide down to say comfortably, I could feel his boner against his sweat pants. Knotted it slightly entered my ass. I can't avoid criticism. Trevor's man kind is so hard and stood at this moment. He was standing because of me, while I was sitting on his thigh.

My femininity throbbed.

I don't know if Trevor was able to feel my womanhood's pulsate because if he did... I would rather be blown by the wind if that happens. It's embarrassing. Maybe he thinks I'm excited about him.

The car wobbles every time we pass a bumpy road so we can't help but move, up and down. This caused Trevor's boner to sink deeper into my ass.

"Shit! Mine is standing. Are you?" Everyone laughed when Renzo asked.

"Stupid." Mae is cheap.

"Of course. It's normal, pre. Is my boyfriend my girlfriend?" Sunuel said.

"Yes, that's right, our boyfriend is our girlfriend, so he's normal and hard. Well, what about Trevor? Does he want to get out of here?" They all looked in Trevor and I's direction, my cheeks must be red by now.

I was already used to sex.

I shouldn't be alone in this topic, but I can't help it either, especially if we are the ones being teased, if I am one of the teased.

"Sherin is sexy. Why not stand?" Trevor growled. I already knew that but my jaw still couldn't help but drop in shock. I mean, yes, I know it already and his boner was the evidence. But damn, it... It surprised me for him revealing it to everyone.