Finding Sherin

CEDRICK'S POV.

I woke up from my deep sleep and felt my body a little bit good yet heavy. I stretched my body and pulled up the blanket due to cold coming from the air-conditioner and tried pulling Sherin into me but when I tried to do it, I grabbed for a pillow and not for a human.

Because of that, I immediately became aware and turned around in bed. I looked around inside my room and Sherin was no longer here. I still have a slight headache from the wine I drank last night and almost had a doubt that it might not be Sherin but... I can't be wrong.

I know how her body feels like. I memorized how soft she was, how tight she was, how delicious she was and above all, I memorized all of her tickles. The woman I was fucking last night was moaning so loud whenever I tried to romanticize her. And I don't have doubts that.. that was Sherin.

Yes, that was Sherin.

I still remember how I approached her and pulled her away from the poll because different men were looking at her. Each of those men was thickly looking at her ass which sent me to being possessive.

I never gave them permission to look at my woman's beauty. I should be the only one. Just me.

I knew... It has been over five years since she left me. But still... Up until now... I can't get over from her. Especially today, that I know she cannot refuse to my touch and kisses, I'm determined I could grab her back in my arms again. We could be used to what we were before... But this time, I would be more gentle, more responsible, more loving to her.

Before she left my mansion, I was already developing my feelings for her. While I was fucking her last time I broke up with Elise... She kept on muttering sorry for she thought she was the reason for our break up. But the hell she isn't.

Even before I met Sherin, the first day we met, that night I almost bumped into her... Elise has been cheating on me. That night I almost bumped into Sherin, I was coming from the hotel where Elise and her man checked in.

I know the owner of the hotel so they allowed me to peek into Elise's room. And horrifyingly, as I pushed on the door carefully with my shaking hands, I caught my girlfriend on top of a guy, moving up and down. Elise was horseriding that fucking guy. They were fucking and they definitely enjoy their position as I am hearing their moans.

I was so hurt, I was so mad. I love Elise. I love Elise to the point I don't want to lose her and just let her cheat on me just to make her stay. That is why... To be fair with myself... I made it agreement with Sherin. That I will provide everything for her but she should provide everything warm my body needs and asks.

And so she agreed. I didn't divorce Elise. And he seems to be doing nothing wrong every time he sees us and visits my house. So after he came home, I was sleeping with Sherin. It is not my fully intention but my body also wanted it. Sherin is very sexy. And I think he really blessed me.

Because who would expect that?

I am broke when I found her. And I knew we were the same at that time.

Sherin is like a walking fire, she will make you soak in your own sweat. Yet, she's like a cold freezer at the same time because the long-thick-hard between my thighs stood and froze helplessly when I saw her perfect body. Honestly speaking, I enjoyed having sex with her more than with Elise.

I am confident and proud that I am the only man that Sherin lets into her sensuality, the opposite of Elise. Elise is my girlfriend, but it seemed like Sherin is my real girlfriend because she never let another man touch her even though she could do it.

Even though I told her not to make love to other men, she can do it behind my back, like Elise is doing to me.

But no... She never ever tried doing it.

I quickly got out of bed and put on my pants. I even got hard times buckling my belt since I was running out of time. He left after we had sex. I wonder when she left? Was it just this morning? Was it last night while I was sleeping?

I let out a heavy sigh after realizing she left me dumb founded again. God, Sherin. I can't blame you for doing this to me. I really deserved this. If you only knew that I'm regretting all that I have done to you... All I said to you back then... Just now, you're not even in front of me... I'm sorry.

I guess this is my karma. To fall hard for you.

I started my car quickly and when I got a little far from the Hotel, I suddenly hit the brakes.

That's when I realized that I didn't know my destination. I don't know where to start first.

Where can I find him? Not even a sign because to him I am nothing. I don't have anything.

I hit my head very hard on the steering wheel of my car. I raked my hand over my hair in too much frustration. I am panicking. I am mostly drowning in fear. I am almost going to die.

The trauma I experienced when she left me keeps on coming back to my mind again and it scares me. It damn scares me.

Until I finally made a u-turn and made my way to Luther's office, my friend. He is the owner of the hotel we checked in just hours ago. It was his hotel we used to make love. If I don't ask for his permission, his stuff won't let me see the CCTV footage. That's my only way to see where and when Sherin left.

When I arrived, I quickly got out of the car and entered his company. People I pass congratulate me. But when I arrived at his office, my shoulders almost fell to the ground because the only person who greeted me was his secretary. He's obviously not here.

"Sorry Sir Wagner, but Sir Luther is currently on his meeting now with the board of directors." His secretary's language.

I cannot just go there and ask and talk to Luther because that meeting is so confidential and important so I say.... "What time does his meeting end?" I asked hesitantly.

"It's just begun, Sir." The woman smiled hesitantly at me.

All I could do was let out a heavy and deep breath. I do not know. Tangina. It's not my habit to wait, but for Sherin, for her location, I will wait for Luther's meeting to end. I kept covering my right foot on the ground, restless. I remembered everything that happened last night.

And remembered that Sherin didn't even moan my name. She was just moaning. But she didn't mutter my name. I felt my back to search for nail scratches and I just winced when I found two next to each other.

God. This is the sign. Sherin is the girl I had sex with last night. His habit is to hug me from behind and scratch me like this. Among Elise and her, she is the only girl who likes to hug me and scratch my back every time I'm inside her. Elise prefers holding on the bed's headboard rather than my shoulders, unlike Sherin who always aims to get enough strength from my body. She might be enjoying the night we shared and so was I.

"Hey, yow! You missed me, bro!" I woke up from my deep thoughts when Luther came and tapped me on the shoulder. I immediately glared at him because of his teasing and pretended to be scared. "Oh! At least angry, right away?"

I shook my head as a small smile peeked on my lips, I slowly looked away before starting a conversation. "I saw Sherin last night inside the bar..." I trailed off.

"So?" Luther.

"I hooked up with her." I added

"Tangina seriously?!" He overreacted.

"Yeah." I muttered giving him a couple of nods.

"Wait!" He sat next to me and covered his forehead with a blanket. "Isn't it..." I think I got what he was going to say next. "You moved them again didn't you Trevor?!" He asked and I was right. "And... Sherin agreed?!" He said in shock.

I didn't say everything right away and sighed. "Trevor is dead. I watched it on the news." I admit.

"Are you serious?"

"Yeah... The crime was intentional. And I heard Sherin defended the case... and she won." I said proud even though the truth is that I am very jealous. He really loves Trevor that much.

Which is also the case with this... He won. And I know until now... Even two years ago... She still hasn't moved on from that man. And I guess that was the reason why she was so drunk in the bar.

"Wait. You'll be right back. You guys had sex then? What are you doing here? To talk about how good your night was and then make me jealous?" He laughed like a fool.

"Crazy. That's not that." I said toning is serious. "Can you tell your people to show me the CCTV footage of today and yesterday?" I asked.

"Don't say you two were drunk last night so you want to watch how you and Sherin joined forces, every room doesn't have CCTV no!"

"Asshole. That's not what I mean but you were right. We were both drunk. And... she ran away from me. I wanted to know what time she left and where did she go." I was so tense as what I am lately.

"Tangina! What are you doing here?! Go there, I already texted my employees!" Luther pushed me and yelled at me.

That's what I did so I hurried back to his Hotel. When I arrived, someone immediately assisted me and took me to the room where all the computers where all the events captured by the camera were recorded.

The male stuff rewind the video on the hallway near our room, and from there, at exactly eight in the morning, the door moved open revealing a woman in crumpled clothes. My lips parted and my heart beat faster because I was right... Sherin was the girl I had sex with.

I watched him walk down the hallway through the CCTV footage. It was like something pierced my chest when I noticed that he was wiping his eyes. God, she was crying. She was crying and the reason might be our sex. Our accident sex.

I felt like my heart throbbed slowly in pain, cracking in sorrow. Guilt is now killing me. I should not have touched her last night. Our sex. She regrets it. She regrets doing it with me.

And I hated the fact of me thinking we both liked and enjoyed the heat and moans we made. I'm probably the only one who was satisfied with what happened to us last night. Her moans. Her cries in pleasure. Her willingness to be touched and romanized were all brought only by alcohol. And that's all against her will.

She probably loves Trevor up until now. And she felt so sorry, so guilty that she had sex with me. And that was enough to hurt me, broke me piece by piece. I don't have any idea that falling in love with Sherin would mean this way.... it was so painful.

I'm stupid for actually thinking that my body, impacted her. That my body... brought her feelings for me back to this time again.