Chapter 68

"Where have you been?" He asked me an open question. He is like my father and I am his son who is waiting for him to come home, as if there is a curfew.

"Outside, I just took a breather."

I'm lying.

"Are you with someone?"

"Nothing, I'm alone." I'm lying again.

"Alright, I'll go to the room first. By the way, good morning!" I didn't wait for him to answer, I hurried into the room. When I entered, I saw that Elizabeth was already awake.

"Mommy? Where are you from?"

He asked in surprise.

I stepped closer to him

"Outside sweetie, Mommy just took a breather."

"With Daddy Xander?" My eyes widened slightly at the last question.

"A-What? B-Why would Xander end up here so soon?" I can't look away from my son.

"Because of you...?" He asked for an answer.

"Come on Mom, I saw it. I saw from here that you got out of a yellow car mommy. And I know it was Daddy Xander's car." He spits.

I scratched my head in shame. Okay, maybe he woke up earlier.

"Shhhh, let's see what you saw okay."

"Okay... that's it, Mommy, I'm just going to take a bath." He said and entered the bathroom with another towel on his shoulder.

I sat on the bed and was surprised when my phone vibrated. I thought it was Mindy or maybe Xander who texted but I was suddenly stunned to see Mrs. that's ferrer.

From Mrs. Ferrer: What? I'm so sorry to ask you this but Xander wasn't here at his house yesterday when I went to see him yesterday. I was just going to ask if you were with or saw him?

I don't know what to reply to this text. It's like everything that happened suddenly came back to me.

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(Flashback)

I am here now at the house of Mrs. Ferrer. He picked me up at Xander's house, I was the only one there, my son and I had just left because he was taking Elizabeth to school and I couldn't say goodbye because I didn't have a load.

"Here, this is my gift for you. I found out it was your birthday last time." He gave me a small box and when I opened it, my eyes widened when I saw that it was a car key.

"P-Po? That's a great birthday present, I'm sorry Mrs. Ferrer but I can't accept it." I shook my head and gave it to him but he didn't accept it.

"Accept it, it's just my little gift for you. Come on, I'll be really sad if you don't accept my little gift for you."

"Go ahead." I smiled at him. "Thank you very much Mrs. Ferrer."

"By the way, I sent money to your bank account, have you received it yet?"

"Money? What for?"

I asked in surprise while looking at my cellphone.

"Mrs. Ferrer, we made a mistake, 500k came to my bank account."

"That's right, I'll give you 500k. I hope you stay longer at my daughter Elyse's house and then take good care of her, even if my daughter is stubborn, just be patient. If you have financial problems, don't be shy to come to me ."

"M-Thank you very much Mrs. Ferrer!" because of joy I stood up and hugged him.

"By the way, I don't want to tell you, but she is a very dangerous woman..."

"Woman?"

"Why is there a crazy woman going back and forth to Sir Xander's house, once she threw a stone at me and almost hit my son. Sir Xander said she was his assistant?" I explain.

"Ohh, that girl...don't worry I'll take care of her. As long as you and your son don't leave the house casually, especially at night." He said.

I was a bit confused by the last thing he said. "Why?"

"It's late and it's dangerous, you know you're in the middle of the jungle and we don't know if there are any wild animals around and if something bad happens there's no one else to escape but you-you're the only people there . it's good to be careful, I'm a little worried about your son and you too. I'm not worried about my son anymore because he's used to living there, he's already memorized his surroundings." I just nodded because I understood what he meant.

"Ahm, I'm just asking whose land is Xander living on?" I suddenly asked him.

"I don't know. Xander won't talk to me about that matters so, I didn't find out."

Mrs. didn't know. Ferrer?

"I was just asking if Xander has a job?" He thought he could answer something.

"Why did you ask all of a sudden?"

"Nothing, just curious."

"You two are together, right? Why is he leaving the house? Did he tell you that he has work?"

"He didn't mention anything."

I just scratched my head.

"Hmm! I'm going to show you something!" He stood up and pulled me somewhere.

I looked around and it looks like we are in Mrs.'s room. Ferrer. "What are we doing here?" I want to ask.

"Here, look at this. I just thought I'd show you these photos of Xander when he was young." Hearing Xander's name suddenly perked me up.

We both sat on the edge of his bed and I smiled when he showed me a photo of Xander.

"She was cute when she was young, wasn't she? even if he doesn't smile, he's still handsome."

I looked back and forth at the photo and at Mrs. Ferrer, it's obvious that he loves Xander very much and I can feel it now.

"By the way, who is Xavier?"

I wanted to cover my mouth because why did I ask him that.

"Huh? Who is Xavier?"

He doesn't know Xavier? Isn't he Xander's twin?

I was going to ask more but I stopped when I saw a photo. Xander stood up and there was a car next to it...I scratched my head because the car next to it seemed familiar.

"Is that his car? Xander's?"

"Ah, yes, I gifted it to him for his birthday, so something unexpected happened that day..."

"What happened?"

"Well, I don't share this just to anyone. Honestly, that day Xander drove drunk and had an accident." I was surprised by what he said.

"Yes??"

"He's not very injured that time but the one he crashed into..."

"Crash? Did he run into someone."

"No, he crashed into a jeep and as far as I remember a passenger died in that jeep. I didn't let my son go to jail, I know he didn't do it on purpose--"

"So, you used your money, power to save your son?"

"U-Uhm, I'm sorry Mrs. ferrer but I have to go. Thank you very much to everyone!" I rushed out of their house and saw a car parked there, I looked at my hand holding the keys.

I got into the car and started it. I stopped at the place where the accident happened, where my parents and I had an accident before. I guessed as I remembered what happened that day.

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(Flashback)

I am here now in front of my parents' coffin. I couldn't help but cry while staring at him with his eyes closed and lifeless.

"M-Mama, p-papa..." I started crying and stopped myself from opening the casket so I could hug them.

"Ija, I sympathize--"

"What are you doing here? what are you going to give me money again? Do you think money can pay for what your son did to my parents!!"

"Even if he's not imprisoned, he's still a killer!!"

"Ya..."

"GO AWAY! GO AWAY! DON'T COME BACK HERE!!"

(End of flashback)

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now I remember, it was him. She's that girl, so she's familiar? And when we met, he also said that we look alike.

I just shook my head. I don't want to reply to him first, maybe I can say something else, it's difficult. Besides, I'm already loaded, so that's better...

I just sighed and held my head. I still don't really like you forgetting what he did before...

Anyway, I hope he understands my feelings. it's not really that easy to forgive, especially when your family is involved.

"Sh*t!" I'm cheap because of the shock. All of a sudden, my cellphone rang!

Who could it be?!

I looked and it said an unknown number, so I hesitated to answer it. I thought it was the unknown number who was crazy, who always texted me but when I answered it, I heard a familiar voice.

"Hello?"

[Elyse,]

"D-Daren?"

[Yeah, it's m-me!] I held my head because I knew he was drunk just by the tone of his voice.

"You're drunk, aren't you?"

I will ask.

[I found out about Mike and you, are you really bad? Is Elyse really my best friend?]

"Just put it to sleep, Daren. just talk to me when you're not drunk anymore." I calmly promised him.

It's hard to talk to a drunk person, you won't understand each other when you're talking to someone like that.

I try to be careful about what I say to him. I don't want to say hurtful things or insult him because I know it's wrong, so he didn't do anything bad for me to do or say that. I'm really the biggest sin of both of us...maybe if I'm suffering now, I deserve it, for hurting him.

[No! this is just too much for me to bear Elyse! I still love you until now and it hurts me more knowing that Elizabeth's real father is my best friend?! Like the f**k? Are you f**king serious! Maybe if I accept another man but this?? No way! You two just betrayed me!!] It screamed at me. I could feel the hoarseness of his voice and I don't know but I can imagine him now, with tears falling.

"It's not what you think..." I want to explain. tell him everything that happened, that it wasn't really my intention, that I didn't want anything to happen to Mike and me, but what would change if I told him? Nothing, it's over, it's happened. I can't bring back what we used to be by chance.

then I don't want to think about us, it's not that I'm sorry for what's happening to me now. Even though a lot of bad things happened to me, there were also a lot of good things that happened, like when Xander came into my life.

but it's also really painful to think about it with Daren...there's a part of me that's just what if's. What if we don't come? What if I don't drink? What if I locked the door? What if that didn't happen to us...would Daren and I still be? Is our life happy, can't cheating happen if that didn't happen?

Hayst...but what can I do if we're not really meant for each other. I don't care about him anymore, I have Xander and I don't want to let Xander go.

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if I hadn't approached him that day, maybe I wouldn't have known or maybe it would have been too long before I would have known. there's a side of me that I'm grateful that we met and I said what I wanted to say because if I didn't say it to him, maybe he wouldn't be forced to say what he found out...which the truth is that I'm not aware of those he found out.

I know cheating is a choice, it's not a mistake but for me I didn't cheat. I will stand by that because I know I didn't cheat.

I remember nothing that night.

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"Mommy please comb my hair." I just noticed that my son has just finished taking a bath and has finished getting dressed.

I took a comb and followed what he said. A few minutes later, there was a sudden knock on the door.

"That's tomorrow." I said to the one who was knocking.

"Breakfast is ready." Mike promised.

We followed him out.

We sat down in our seats and started eating. While eating, I noticed that there was a small bandage on Mike's neck and he had a few scars on his hand. You can really see the scar up close.

I wondered where he got those. Maybe he's not fighting? But like that, you can't get those scars from a fight. Hey, I'm c-curious again that I shouldn't be, I don't want the side of me that is easily curious because I really know...and if there's ever something with those scars, I really don't want to feel bad.

We just eat in silence. Even my son is only focused on food. it's like we're strangers, we don't talk.

I can't even count how many days we've been like this? How many days have Elizabeth and I been living in her house? the day and time seem to go by fast...it seems like a waste of time for me...because I'm here living in someone else's house and not Xander's.

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What if what Xander told me was true? Is Mike bad?

but I'm not really sure, what I want is to see for myself that he is that bad.

What is Xander's reason for lying, right? I don't really know anything about what's going on between the two of them or what the issue is.

We're done eating.

"Are you going to deliver Elizabeth? By the way, I didn't see your car...?"

"Uhm, my friend borrowed it yesterday, so can you go first?"

"But I have --nevermind. Yeah, I'll take her. Elizabeth let's go now." I kissed my son on the cheek and smiled.

"Be careful. Mommy is here first because she has something to do. Bye! Be careful, both of you." I said goodbye to her.

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I suddenly remembered that. I don't know but as time goes by, I fall more and more for him. Even if he has bad sides...I accept that but I have fears. I'm a little afraid of what will happen next or what I will know.

I have a feeling that Xander has some secrets from me or maybe there's a lot I don't know about him. And I want to know all of that but I don't know where to start...

After they left I entered the room.

"Ayyy horse whore! Are you kidding--hmmm!" He covered my mouth so I frowned.