Daksh feeling

Daksh POV

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I closed my eyes and fought with my mind. I ran my hands through my thick hair for several times. Never had I felt this heartbroken ever. I thought everything is finished. But God has planned something different for us.

Flashback (New York trip)

After we reached New York, the next day, we went to the fashion show. Divya was getting ready for the show, and I was talking with some business partners there. Suddenly, I got notification in my phone. I opened the message and played the video. The video showed how Karthik proposed Divya, and she happily accepted him and hugged him. When I saw that video of Divya and Karthik, my heart broke into a million pieces. I internally died that moment. I felt betrayed and hurt. Even after she promised me, she went to meet that b@st@rd because in the videos, I saw her heart locket chain. I clearly remember that I gave her that chain after she promised me.

What the f**k! How dare she? All she did was an acting! She's such a Drama Queen.

My mobile phone rang. I saw Divya's name flashing on the screen. She continuously kept calling me. Seeing her name in my phone, I got angry, and I switched off the phone. Then I heard the show announcement, so I went and sat down on the VIP seat. Models started walking ramp on the stage and soon Divya walked on the stage. Her eyes caught mine. We didn't break our gaze.

I want to ask her so many questions.

Why did you cheat me?

What did you hurt me?

All she did was just a love drama?

Was it really a love drama? Yes!

I shook my head and got on my knees and went off from that place. I was talking with some business clients. I saw Divya coming towards me, so I excused myself. In a flash, I drove the car away from her. I had never driven my car in this freaking speed.

Soon, I reached the hotel room and directly went to the balcony to calm myself. I was breathing heavily because of uncontrollable anger. Tears were flowing down my eyes.

Suddenly, I felt Divya hugging me from behind. I stiffened under her touch. I didn't say anything at first, I just let her hug me.

Did she really want to kill me?

"Why did you leave me there alone? I didn't do anything wrong and don't understand why are you so angry at me? Why are you crying? Is there something wrong Daksh? Please tell me" she pleaded. I didn't say anything else.

Then she turned me towards her and cupped my face in her hand. Her eyes were full of sorrow.

"Are you angry at me? Did I hurt you in any way? If I did, please tell me Daksh" she asked me. Hearing her words, I got more angry.

"Daksh, I know something is bothering you very badly. Please tell me and let me, in" she said sadly.

Wow! What a performance?! She is acting quite well. She is a real Drama Queen after all. But, I'm not a fool anymore to fall for her words. I am never gonna believe her acting.

I took a step towards her. "Divya, will you let me in?" I asked.

"What do you mean?" She asked me confusingly.

I caressed her cheek, bringing my face closer to her ears and whispered, "Let me make love to you, right now." I felt her entire body freeze.

"Wh___What ar__are you saying?" She shuttered.

"Awh, come on. You heard me. I want to make love to you" I said once again. She sighed helplessly.

"Daksh, what happened to you? Why are behaving like this? Are you serious?" She asked me.

"Didn't trust me Divya?" I asked her innocently.

'Let's play this game together. Since you started it, let me finish it!' I smirked inwardly.

"Yes, of course I do bu-" I cut her off.

"You don't trust me and don't love me. It's ok, take a rest" I whispered acting like I'm heartbroken. I tried to leave the place, but she held my wrist and stopped me.

"Daksh, I trust you with my life. You're my true love. You're my soul. Your happiness is my desire. Your desire is my fulfillment. My fulfillment is to always keep you happy. If you want me. I will gladly give my body to you. So, make love to me, right now!" she told me sincerely. I looked at her with wide eyes.

Her sincere word was creating a storm inside my mind.

Is she really innocent?

No!

Does she really love me?

Huh! Never!

Damn her! And her acting skills!

How many times will she cheat on me? I will never love you anymore. I am never gonna trust you. Many more things are going to come on your way which you wouldn't have even dreamt of.

Just wait and watch!! Divya Mathur! The game has just began.

"Are y_ou sure?" I stuttered.

"What the hell is your problem, you idiot?!" She asked me annoyingly.

"My problem is you, Divya" I said with cold eyes.

Before she could ask me what I meant, I kissed her. I pushed her against the wall and thrusted my tongue inside her mouth, not even her asking permission. I grasped her bre**ts in my hand and squeezed it painfully, kissing her roughly. I kissed her harder, more aggressive. I bite her neck. I saw her eyes filled with tears.

Finally, she was fully naked under me. I spread her legs wide and thrust her hard, deep and fast making her cry out in pain, but I paid no heed.

Suddenly, I stopped thrusting her and saw blood. Then the sudden realization hit me hard.

Oh God! Is she virgin?

Then my eyes travelled on to hers. Those brown eyes filled with tears.

"Are you a virgin?" I asked in worry. She looked at me with a shocked face.

"Of course, damn it! I am a virgin. You didn't know?" she snapped at me. I felt really bad.

Oh god is she innocent?

Am I doing wrong?

"Daksh" she called me. I looked down at her. Her brown eyes filled with innocent tears. I sighed.

"Let's finish off where we've started, shall we?" I said and started thrusting but slowly this time.

I gentle made love to her.

After making love to her, I slept on my right side. Soon I felt her hugging me. I felt really angry at myself for doing this to her. "Divya, don't disturb me," Saying this, I pushed her away. I turned to the other side and slept.

MORNING ___________

Guilt was the first emotion that washed over me when I woke up. I felt angry, furious, like I wanted to kill someone really bad. I turned my head and saw beside me Divya sleeping peacefully.

I sighed and threw away the blanket. I made my way to the bathroom. After getting ready, I packed my luggage without disturbing her sleep. I can't face her. I hated myself in that moment. I could not take this anymore. I'm going to my home leaving her alone.

I opened the door and saw her one last time and left the hotel and departed to my home.

Soon I reached India, and I went back to my office. I could not believe myself that I did these things to her. I felt that I was badly missing her presence around me. An unknown part in me was eagerly waiting to see here around me.

What the f**k is wrong with me?

Suddenly, I remember that b@st@rd Karthik. I called him in my intercom and asked him to come into my cabin. Soon he entered my cabin with a little smirk on his face.

"Do you love Divya?" I asked him directly. He looked shocked. Then he composed himself.

"Yes sir, I love her. In fact, Divya also loves me so much. I proposed her last month, and she accepted me happily" he said proudly. I got angry hearing this.

"Then why the f*****g hell she told me that she loved me too?" I roared at him angrily.

"Sir, she doesn't love you. She only wanted a chance for her modeling career. So that's the reason she's acting to be in love with you" he said.

The anger brew inside me.

She f****** lied!

What did she expect from me?

Money? Popularity? Fame?

"How dare you? You two have been cheating on me all these days, weeks and months?" I roared at him. He looked nervous.

"I am very sorry sir. I already explained to Divya, not to do this to you and not to cheat on you, but she didn't listen to me. In fact, I really feel sad for you. We're sorry sir" he said innocently. Even though, I saw a little smirk on his disgusting face.

'God! How I wanna punch him to take that smirk off his face!' I thought and exactly did the same. I punched him straight on his nose. That smirk was no more visible on his face. Now I feel satisfied.

"From this moment, I don't want to see your fu*king disgusting face ever. You're fired. If you ever appear in front of my face again, trust me that'll be your last day" I said dangerously, glaring at him. He looked shocked and left the room without saying anything.

I sat on the chair and closed my eyes feeling tried. I could feel my heart beating faster in my chest. Maybe I was sick?

'Yes, love sick' my mind voice mocked me. I chuckled bitterly. Tears were flowing down my eyes.

Suddenly, I heard my cabin door opening. I opened my eyes and saw Maya standing there with a concerned look.

"Daksh, are you okay?" She asked me.

"No Maya, I am not" I said and broke down in front of her.

"Oh god! Daksh what happened to you?" She asked, hugging me. There I told everything about Divya and my love towards her, Divya betraying me and every damn thing. I told everything to Maya.

"I can't believe this. How dare she cheated on you? Please don't be sad for her. I always saw her roaming around with Karthik, but I didn't know you loved her. She neither deserve you not your love. Just forget her Daksh" Maya consoled me. So Maya also knew about Divya and karthik's closeness. I'm the only fool her. I was fooled by her, by her love.

Through the camera, I noticed Divya entering the office. I felt my anger increasing thousand folds seeing her.

I want to hurt her. I wanted to crush her under my tight grips. I want to make her hurt and suffer just like how she did to me. I stood up from the chair and tried to create some distance between Maya and me, but Maya suddenly grabbed my wrist and pulled me closer to her and kissed my lips.

What the hell?

My hands landed on her waist. Before I tried to push her, someone pushed Maya away from me. It is none other than Divya?

All my anger melted away after seeing her standing so close to me.

Oh God! How can I lose my anger?

Are you out of your mind Daksh?

Then my anger replaced me again, and it was strong enough to defeat all my feelings I have towards her.

Divya slapped Maya, but I captured her wrist in a tight grip.

"Leave me, Daksh. I want to kill her!" she shouted and tried to get out of my grip, but I held her hands tightly.

"Quiet Divya!" I shouted. She flinched hearing my tone. I feel bad for her.

"Maya leave, I will talk to you later" I ordered. She nodded and left the cabin. Then, I released my grip on her hands.

"Daksh, you better tell me what the hell going on!" she asked, raising her voice at me.

I got angry. She has the audacity to raise her voice at me after she did all those crap towards me.

"Lower your voice" I said in a dangerous tone.

"Why did you leave me there? Why did you leave me alone and hurt? Why are you ignoring me? I don't even know what I've done wrong? Why are you kissing her? Tell me. Daksh?" she asked me, crying. I didn't answer her question.

"Why are you not answering my question? I asked you a question, and I want an answer to that" she said, sternly.

"I WANT AN ANSWER, RIGHT NOW" she stressed each word.

Oh she wants answers? Ok, I will tell her in my way!

I smirked looking into her face, "You want to listen to my answers right? Then listen carefully. I DON'T LOVE YOU, DIVYA. IN FACT, I HATE YOU SO MUCH" I said with all the disgust in me.

"Daksh, what are you saying? Did I do any mistake, tell me what mistake I did? Please don't do this, answer me what happened to you? Please say you are joking" she asked me, helplessly.

What a great performance Divya Mathur!

"Divya, this is not a joke. This is the truth of your life. I hated you, still hate you and will always hate you" I said seriously.

Poor girl, she didn't know that I know her real face. Her lover boy, Karthik already told me about her truth.

"No, you don't hate me. Our love, our feelings are true. Why are you killing me with your words? You love me, and you cared for my every happiness. Then why are you hurting me like this? You said you hate me right, what did I do that you hate me so much? Tell me" she begged me.

Now I can't control my anger. I gripped her arm tightly and said, "You remember Divya, when you insulted me and slapped me in front of everyone in the studio? That day I decided to take my revenge from you. You're very stupid, Divya. How can you think I will love you? This is all drama. Everything was a trap in which I caught you, and you got trapped in my love. You're a fool. You lose your virginity to me. Finally, I took your virtue and my revenge on you" I said and laughed at her.

"How can you do this? You made love to me to take revenge? I was not a fool. I really loved you, so I gave myself to you. I fell in love with you truly. My love is not fake unlike you" she said, crying badly.

I know she's actually acting but seeing her tears. I felt pain inside my chest.

'No, she's acting. Don't trust her' my mind voice snapped at me. I quickly composed myself. Gathering all my words up, I threw them at her with pure venom.

"Don't act like you truly loved me. You're using me for your modeling career, and I used you for my pleasure and revenge. Now, it's over. We're over. I don't want to see you anymore! Just get out" I said turned my back, running my fingers through my hair.

I can't see her tears. Not even her fake tears. I could feel a thick lump in my throat. Why does she have to do this to me?

Damn her!

She makes it hard for me to control myself.

I heard her taking deep breathe, "I don't hate you, but I hate myself for loving you. I must be stupid and as insane as I can be to love a guy who is be neither worth of me nor my love" she said. I can hear her footstep's leaving. Suddenly, I heard her voice behind me.

"I loved you but not anymore" she choked out and left my cabin.

I closed my eyes, "Why is she behaving as if I betrayed her?" I asked myself.

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Precap - Daksh POV part 2

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