Chapter 72: Ben Troubles

Shocked, his mouth drops open and he looks like he can't believe what she just asked, then he looks at her with those hungry eyes. "Sure, if you don't mind that all I have is a bottle of Jack. I don't entertain."

She takes his hand and starts to lead the way. He finds himself watching her ass sway while she walks in front of him. He matches her pace. As they reach the door, he unlocks it and they make their way inside. He flips the switch and Samantha's eyes adjust to the light in the room.

She sees a love seat and a recliner that have clearly seen better days. A small kitchen off to the side and an open door that looks like it leads to a bedroom. She looks around more to see a closed door, maybe a bathroom or closet. Not much but not bad either on what he makes at the pizza joint.

He takes a step towards her and touches her waist with his fingers. He pulls her in and their lips lock. Samantha's hands find his arms have rather large muscles as she runs her fingers up and down them. Their eyes lock onto each other as they continue what they started just a few minutes earlier outside.

Kelly puts her hand up to his chest to create a little space between them. She pushes back and he releases her as his eyes question her. "I need to stop. I want this badly, but I can't. My mind keeps telling me no and my body betrays me. I just can't handle this right now. I'm sorry."

He steps back and runs his fingers through his hair as he sighs. "I figured this was too good to be true, maybe we shouldn't see each other right now. There is something going on between the two of us and I don't know if you will be able to deal with it given your current situation. When you work through your grief and pain give me a call. I will be there in a heartbeat."

Suddenly he changes his mind, "Actually, anytime you need to talk give me a ring. I want to be here for you. I know sometimes you must have someone who cares around you to heal. There is just something about you that makes me want to jump over the moon for you." He smiles as she looks at the ground.

For a few minutes they just stand there and then Samantha turns towards the door. "Thank you. I will keep that in mind." She walks out.

She runs home quickly and meets Kelly's gaze as she opens the front door. "You sure were gone a long time. Are you O.K? What happened?"

"First off, I ran into Jonathan literally on my run."

"What?" Kelly jumps up and eyes her.

" I rounded the corner and bam, there he was kneeling tying his shoe. I almost fell and he bolted up and rescued me, then we kissed and oh God it felt good. I honestly don't know what came over me. All I know is one thing led to another and I ended up at his place. We kissed again and I flipped out. I couldn't do it. Trust me I wanted to, but I couldn't. You know what I mean?"

"Yeah, I actually do. So, what happens now? Are you going to see him again? What did he think?"

"Well, he told me at first to just give him a ring when I could deal with a relationship and then he about faced when he told me to call him anytime when I need to talk. I guess he realized that the first option could be never. So, the second at least he would be with me. What do you think?"

"Honestly, I think he's a winner. If this would have been any other man, he would have dropped your ass in a hot second and told you where to go. But it's obvious he really cares for you and wants you far more then he dares to say. Who knows? Maybe it's love at first sight." Kelly jokingly says, but in the back of her mind she hopes for Samantha.

The rest of the evening they sit and read books as they snuggle under a blanket on the couch. Kelly looks up and notices that it's way past midnight and shakes Samantha. After not being able to wake her, she just decides to cover her up and go to bed.

In the middle of the night, Samantha starts to dream. Ben runs the palms of his hands over her breasts as she wakes up. She moans and his hands make their way south. Slightly opening her legs, he pushes one finger past her folds, and it slides into her. When he pulls it out, her juices cover his fingers. He raises it to his lips and licks it as he smiles.

She looks at him and his eyes are blacker then black, but the rest of him is the same. She watches him as he takes off his clothes and nestles himself between her legs. She feels him plunge deep inside of her and moans loudly, grabbing onto his arms.

Suddenly, she feels something is wrong, but he is right in front of her. He slides in and out of her as she tightens around him. They match rhythms and they both start to moan. She reaches up and grabs ahold of his hair, her fingers tangling in the strands.

She feels herself about to explode when he starts to shake and finishes first filling her. As she rides his she feels her own release, then they both lay there in a loving embrace. They lay quietly for a while just holding each other until Samantha feels like something is wrong again.

Turning over she notices something. She looks at his face and his eyes are completely void of emotion, glassy and he isn't blinking. She touches his skin and it's cold to the touch. She thinks for a minute and then like a light bulb turning on, his eyes brighten, and his skin feels normal again.

Wondering what happened she asks him, "Are you alright baby?"

"Why, what do you mean?"

"Just a minute ago I could have sworn you were dead in my arms."

"Oh that, well it's because I am dead. I can't keep up this appearance for long."

"What? I don't understand. If you're dead, you wouldn't be able to make love to me and hold a conversation with me. You aren't dead."

"Yes, I am. Don't you remember? I died in the car crash. I am so sorry about that. I promised to be with you forever, so instead of going into the light I am still here with you. I couldn't leave you. Your everything to me. Now you will never have to be alone."

She starts to cry uncontrollably. He tries to make her stop but she won't. When he sees that he has just made things worse he leaves, then she wakes up. As she slowly awakens, she looks around. "Wow, that was a weird dream." she says in a whisper.

She notices that she's on the couch and goes to the bedroom where Kelly is sound asleep. As she slips into bed with her sister, she wonders what's really going on, then she falls fast asleep.