Chapter 77: What Will I Do With Jonathan?

What in the hell is going on? She says to herself as she sits on the couch shaking. She was so sure the dream was real. It was so good, that's why it wasn't true.

She cries and cries for hours until she remembers that she promised Jonathan, she would call him. After washing her face and cleaning up she retrieves his name from her contacts. She looks at it for a few minutes, as she does, she wonders if she really should be bothering him. He might be at work.

Looking at the clock she decides to call and if he's working, she will leave a message. It rings about 8 times and then she hears his voice, but it's a recording. So, she leaves her message and presses end. She sits back down on the couch and watches T.V. for a while.

Jonathan gets out of work at 10 pm and looks at his messages. He sees that Samantha called and listens to her message. Relieved, he looks at the time and hopes she is still awake as he calls her.

"Hey, I am so glad you are still awake. How are you doing Samantha? I missed you."

There is silence on the line for a second or two. "Honestly, I have been a wreck, I could really use some company, but right now just as a friend. Can you come over and just be with me tonight? I don't want to be alone when I go to sleep, and I feel safe in your arms."

"Yes, I will be right there. Just give me a couple minutes to go home and feed Buddy. Then I will be right over."

"O.k. I can't wait to see you. And thank you for this. Really."

"Alright. Let me get home and I will be over. Talk to you in a few." he hesitates to hang up, but he ends the call and rushes home. After getting Buddy food, water, and petting him he leaves to go to Samantha's house.

When he gets there, he has a flurry of emotions fall onto his shoulders. He can't wait to see her but also, he's worried about her and can't help to feel guilty for her sudden problems. He looks at the door from his car and sees her moving throughout the house.

He gets out and walks up only to have the door swing open as she rushes to his arms and pretty much jumps on him. She smells so wonderful, inviting and edible he almost tears her clothes off and makes love to her. But he remembers his promise and keeps his hands in a safe place.

"Thank you for coming. I don't know why but you make me feel safe and yes, loved." She hugs him again and then she motions for him to come sit on the couch with her.

They sit and talk for a few minutes about what happened at his work and then she turns the T.V. on. "Do you have anything you would like to watch?"

"No, watch whatever you feel like. I'm not picky. My mom used to have me watch movies with her when dad worked at night. She would get lonely and need someone there, so she wasn't so scared. I remember that she had to be put on medication when my dad died because she couldn't handle being in the dark without him."

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to remind you of the past." She looks at his eyes as she swears, she sees sadness.

"Oh, no problem. We both have our own baggage that we bring to the table. It's just up to us to let it stay in the past and not let it affect our future together. Some can't get over it, I choose to move on and find something better."

"I want to move on with you, but I am finding it hard to. So many things remind me of my past around here. It can be tricky not to get all caught up in it. I guess I just have to make new memories together with you, so I have them to look back on."

"Baby, you have no idea how good that makes me feel. I love you and I want you to know that whatever you decide I will respect you for it. No matter what."

They watch a scary movie and then she starts to fall asleep. Instead of waking her, he just picks her up and carries her to bed. When he reaches the bedroom, he gently lays her on top of the covers, then he takes off her jeans and sweater, replacing them with a nightgown he finds in her top dresser drawer.

Paying special attention to not wake her he lifts her legs and pulls down the covers. After he takes his pants and shirt off, he gets into bed behind her and snuggles as he falls asleep.

The next morning, Samantha wakes up bright and early to see Jonathan sleeping soundly next to her. She smiles happily as she feels the weight of the world leave her shoulders. Carefully getting out of bed she goes in the kitchen to make him breakfast.

Just as she makes coffee, she hears him start to wake up and brings him breakfast in bed. He smiles from corner to corner. "I thought you might want this." She gestures to the food and coffee as she sets it in front of him on the covers.

He looks at it and then to her, "Thank you. It looks wonderful. I can't believe I'm so lucky." He starts to eat and makes happy noises as he guzzles down the coffee.

"You have no idea how much I love you, do you?" he looks at her inquisitively.

"No, but I am getting a fair idea." She leans over and gives him a quick kiss and then licks his chin where a little jam fell from the toast.

She watches him as he continues to eat whole heartedly. Noticing that he glances at her every time he takes a bite, she blushes. She turns around and walks into the bathroom turning on the water for a bath. As she gets out a towel and is about to drop her bathrobe Jonathan comes up behind her and gently kisses the back of her neck.

"I wish there was room in there for both of us. I sure would love to relax in some sudsy water with you." He winks and kisses her full on the lips as she turns around and looks at him with dreamy eyes. "What you do to me whenever I see, kiss, and touch you. I'm afraid I have never ever felt this way about anyone before you. This world will never be the same for me ever again."

He starts to sing Hey There Delilah to her and they dance as his hands rest on her hips. They sway back and forth as he continues to sing and breathe hot air into her ear, then she realizes the tub is about to overfill and the trance is broken. He stops singing and helps her mop up the little bit of water that slipped out.

When they are done cleaning up, he leaves her so she can take a bath and decides it's probably best that he go home now. As he leaves, he pokes his head in the open bathroom door and sees her beautiful nude body. She turns around and he quickly says, "I'm heading out. I will call you later." He leaves feeling heavy hearted.

I never meant to fall in love with her. How did this happen so fast? It couldn't have been a worse time for her. Maybe I should just disappear for a while till she realizes that she wants me as much as I want her?

He returns home to find Buddy waiting at the front door for him, whining. "Awe Buddy, it's o.k. Maybe some time she will stay the night here and you can snuggle up to her too." He tells him as the picture flashes through his head.

He starts to sing and then hums the rest of the tune. Suddenly, I have become such a romantic. What is the matter with me? I can't ever remember a time that a woman has had me tied in knots before. All I can think of is having her in my arms, marrying her and making babies. Lots of babies. At that thought he shakes his head and snaps out of it.

He takes a shower and after getting dressed takes Buddy for a walk. Soon enough he realizes it's time for work. As he leaves, he feels disappointment because he forgot to call her. He gets his phone and hits her number in the contacts. As he waits for her to pick up, he prays she isn't taking a nap or away from the phone.

Finally, Samantha picks up and looking at her phone notices it's Jonathan. I guess he didn't forget after all. Impressed that he kept his word she felt uplifted.

"Hi, I am so glad you called. Believe it or not I already have been missing you something awful. When you touch me like you do it's like a dream and I don't ever want to wake up. But we need to slow down the pace or I start feeling like I'm spinning."

"Oh, ok. Well, I will let you set the pace then. Just tell me what you need from me, and I will do it. I may be crazy but I'm so in love with you I can't leave you alone. I need to be with you even if I can only talk to you. I realized something today and it's hard for me to say but I just want you to be happy. That's the only thing that matters to me."

"Wow, that is so heartfelt. I think I'm falling in love with you. Without you I feel like I'm not whole, that a big piece of me is missing. I don't know how this happened so fast, but I believe we are meant to be together. Circumstances have brought us together because we are supposed to be. I believe in fate and your mine."

He sighs, "I just arrived at work, baby. I must go. Talk to you tomorrow?"

"Yes, definitely. See you then." She hangs up and then starts to make dinner. When she realizes that she doesn't have half the ingredients she needs she runs to the store.