Chapter 81: Strange Behavior

"Ben, where are you? What happened? I don't understand how one minute you can be here making love to me and the next you're not. I can't live like this. I need you." She calls out and hears nothing. He's gone.

She mopes around and eventually makes herself a sandwich and some coffee. She sits down and reads her book on the couch till she hears the doorbell. Opening the door, she sees Jonathan standing there with a pizza in hand. "Hi, can I come in?"

"Yes, actually I was just reading a book. I was going to call you earlier but then I got caught up in something. I'm sorry. I missed you." She looks at his sweet eyes as he bends down to kiss her. His lips warm and soft take possession of hers and suddenly they were inside with his hands all over her.

Somehow the pizza ended up on the table and he had her straddling his waist with her backed up against the wall. They were kissing feverishly, and his hands were one minute on her ass squeezing and then the next on her breasts as he struggled to keep from taking her right here and now.

He wants to just rip her panties off and to make love to her right up against the wall. Kissing, sucking, licking, and making love fast and hard. No playing around, just all heat and need. There will be time later for sweet and slow.

After all, they have the rest of their lives to take it slow. Right now, he needs to be buried deep inside her sweet little body. Feeling her squeeze, him as he thrusts deep into her.

Still kissing, he just takes a hand and swipes her panties to the side. He rubs her clit and feels how wet she is. While he starts to play with her, she unzips his pants, and he puts her down briefly as he pulls out a condom from his wallet and puts it on.

They lock eyes as he picks her back up and he slams her into the wall entering her at the same time. Her moans are breathless, and she accidently scratches his neck with her nails.

She digs in and he starts to slide in and out as they continue to kiss. He sucks on her tongue and then he licks her lower lip. His mouth moves to her neck where he sucks so hard, he gives her a hickey.

Getting near the edge she grabs his head and wraps her fingers in his hair. She pulls his mouth back up and kisses him hard as he slams into her, and she explodes. She screams his name and then starts to quiver.

He keeps moving through it as she tightens around his cock, but he mutters under his breath and then follows her over the edge. He tried to hold it longer, but she just feels perfect. He looks her in the eyes, "I love you Samantha, your mine."

She sees something in his eyes that she hasn't seen before. A sense of something strange. She could almost swear she sees the rest of her life in his eyes. Matter of fact, she does see it. As he stands right in front of her, she sees them happy, a family and then growing old together. In the end she dies in his arms happy.

Samantha starts to cry. Concerned, he immediately pulls out of her and puts her down on her feet. "Did I do something wrong baby? I'm sorry." He takes her chin in his hand and makes her look at him.

Still crying she looks into his eyes again. " I would like nothing better than to tell you I love you. I really do. When I looked into your eyes just now, I saw us growing old after we have had a family and I die in your arms happy. I don't know maybe this is a sign, and I'm sorry I'm crying but it kind of freaked me out. I thought I knew what love was before, but I have never experienced this really till you."

He takes her into his arms and kisses her gently and with all the love in the world. "Baby, then what's wrong?"

"I can't explain it, you will never understand. If you can except me knowing that I can't give you all of me then we can continue. Otherwise, we have to quit whatever this is."

"Just answer me this. Are you in love with me?"

"Yes."

He picks her up and gives her a big hug, kisses her and then holds her till she starts to move.

"In that case I will accept as much or as little of you I can have. Just know at some point I hope I can get all of you. Your mine."

"I know. And at some point, you will have all my heart. It's just that I think I am slowly going insane." She gazes out the window and sees it's starting to rain as she contemplates her next words. "My dead husband has been visiting me. I don't know if it's real or I am going crazy."

Jonathan lowers his eyes and sighs. "I honestly don't know how to compete with that, but I assure you you're not crazy. You are just having a difficult time dealing with his death. It's traumatic what you went through and specially that you were in a coma for two weeks afterwards. It hasn't been that long for you. I guess I need to back off and let you get your head screwed on straight or something. Just know I will be here any time you need me. Day or night. Even if I am at work, I will quit if I have to prove to you."

"I want to talk to you about that. How would you feel about moving in here with me? You wouldn't have to work there if you didn't want to. I found out that my husband had a substantial amount of life insurance on himself. He always wanted me to be well taken care of if he couldn't be here for me."

He steps back and moves to scratch his neck she notices he does this whenever he gets anxious or doesn't know what to do. "I don't know. I don't think it will let you process your feelings. Instead, you're just replacing the hurt with what you feel for me. You must work through this first, then maybe, we can take that step. Lord knows I would love to be with you all the time. I would move mountains for you if I had to, but you need time."

Straightening up his clothes he starts to walk to the door. "I think it's best if I leave. If you want, give me a call whenever you feel like talking. Otherwise, I will patiently wait for you." He turns and opens the door to leave.

"Wait, please. I am so scared. I have never fell so hard for someone in my life so fast. I need you. Now. Not just for sex. I have fallen in love with you. You make me want to live when before I wanted to die. Everything is brighter, sweeter and I care when I am around you. Nothing else matters when you're here." she starts to cry and turns away, so he doesn't see.

"Look, I love you more than life itself but for your own good I have to go." He walks out the door and shuts it behind him.