Memories-Igneous

The whole way over here I have been trying to put together my thoughts so that I could speak with her. As she sits on the boulder glaring at my I still feel tongue tied not knowing where to begin. It took a while to get her here through all that stubbornness. Despite the way she acted the whole way, like a spoiled brat, I can’t remember the last time I had so much fun. I decide to use that feeling while I speak in the hopes that I get through to her.

“When I was five years old, I remember sitting in front of the television with my parents to watch what would happen to the eggs all over the world. I was so enthralled because like everyone else I wanted to know what would come out of them.” I take my seat next to her as I fight not to touch her. “I felt like it was a part of my destiny as soon as I saw the face that hatched from the egg. I remember thinking that I have never seen anyone as beautiful as the baby on that screen. I wasn’t for sure until we had that conversation last night but the baby I saw was you.”

Her gaze meets mine with curiosity as she waits to see what else I will say. “I felt something for you even then. I had been content in that point with being an only child. When I saw you though, I wanted nothing more than to have you be a part of our little family.” I chuckled to myself at how right that had seemed at the time. “Every time I watched the news and it showed something about the eggs I absorbed the information hoping to see you again. To see how you were doing. Even after all these years nothing else on the beautiful baby with red streaked hair was mentioned.” I stare off into the distance as I remember how she looked when she hatched.

“What I’m saying is that I felt a connection to you even then. I don’t know why it is that I did or why those feelings grow stronger now. What I do know is that I wouldn’t trade this feeling for anything in the world. I want to know where it goes” I say looking into her eyes so she can see how I feel.

“We may have been forced into this situation by something unknown to the world, but I honestly feel that whatever it turns into can be what we have both been searching for.” I finish.

“We can’t do this Igneous. Haven’t you seen that no matter what happens there is always a disaster that can easily kill you” she whispers. “Your only human.”

Her words hurt. I never figured that just being what I am could sound dirty. I feel as if she is saying that I’m not good enough for her. At the moment it’s all I want to be.

“I may be only human, but I can protect myself. I’m not asking you to forget what we are. All I’m asking is for a chance. It’s a chance that I want but have never been given” I say with disdain. She blinks at the anger she now hears in my voice. I tried to do this the nice way, but it seems she doesn’t care how I feel. At least I owe it to her to see how bad I want it.

“You must think my life has all be cupcake and rainbows right. Well, if that what you think then you are dead wrong. Growing up, I wanted nothing more than to be loved and to love someone in return. I may have had both parents growing up and a nice house to live in, but you weren’t there to see how cold it could be.” I say rising as I start to pace. Talking about my parents always put me in a mood. “My parents never wanted to have kids. I was an accident and they never hesitated to remind me of it. In that big house I grew up in the environment was always stale and cold.

My parents spent more time separated, working in their own offices than with each other. I was sent to clubs and camps all my life just so they didn’t have to deal with me. when I was home, I was paraded around their friends like a prized show pony. It was the only time I got attention from them or was in the same room unless we were having dinner in front of the television.” I complain.

I take a moment to calm myself before I continue. “I get that the last few days have been chaotic. Hell I even get why you want to end what has barely started between us.” I say as I think. “But if I’m being honest with myself, then I have never felt more alive than I do now. I never knew how happy I could be if I had someone to confide in. to have someone that have feelings for simply hold my hand” I say as I grab hold of hers feeling the heat in my chest settle. “What happened earlier was my fault. I was so pent up and frustrated so I took matters into my own hands. I figured that by doing so I could finally get a read on if you wanted me the same way I wanted you. I had no idea how your dragon would react, and for that I’m sorry” I gush as I stare into her hazel eyes.

She looks at my face reading my expression. As she stares I wait for her to say a word. To say anything at all to me. However, she sits there silent. I get pissed that she is still being stubborn, so I yell at her.

“Say something Magma. I just spilled my heart out to you, and you have nothing to say about it. Can’t you see how much I want to be with you” I yell as my eyes water. Even at my outburst she says nothing. I look down at our twined hands and I feel nothing but sadness. I guess that I can touch her physically due to whatever is going on, but it doesn’t mean that I will have her heart. I release her hand and I turn to walk away. I need a bit of space so I can pull myself together.