Mistakes and Regret

Shawn

The truth was out, and I can see that it has hurt Jenna deeply. I sit down on the bench at a park staring at a blank space before me. I feel like a sore loser with the way I sit here.

Back in the room, I wanted to stay by her side when she told us off, but I know that Jenna needed a space. It had been a week since she fell into a coma. I was excited to see her when her mother link us she was awake, but I guess she wasn't so excited to see us.

"Shawn, she left" Hannah cry to me through the pack link. "I don't know where she runs off to" she added.

"I will look for her," I told her and closed off the link. I stood up to go when I see Jenna running in my direction. This cannot be real, right? I try to slap myself as I watch her running towards me. I shake my head and take a step forward.

"Jenna" I whisper waiting to welcome her in my now spread arms.

"It-"

She runs past me and straight to the riverside. She didn't see me. Am I invincible now? I thought the moon goddess is sending her in my arms. Thoughts runs through my head as I stood there in shock. What just bloody happened?

'Are you stupid? What makes you think the moon goddess will serve her right in your fucking ugly face' my wolf let out an annoying grunt.

I sigh scratching the back of my head. Fuck it! That was fucking embarrassing. I avoided the onlookers around and turn to where Jenna had disappeared to.

Her scream made me look around on alert. I growl and follow her painful cries. I thought someone must have hurt her, but I was wrong. Jenna is on her knees facing the river and cries her heart out.

"Jenna" I whisper in pain and move to her. When I am right behind her, I became contemplated whether to touch her or not. Well, I chose the first one. I reach out to her and pull her in my arms. I didn't say anything I just held her right there as she cry until I felt her limp in my arms. I carry her bridal style back to the packhouse.

When I arrived at the packhouse Hanna came running up to us. "Is she okay?" she asked with worried. Her eyes are both red and swollen. You can tell that she had been crying.

"Physically, she is okay" I reassure her, and she let out a relieved sigh.

We move into the house where Colby is standing at the edge of the couch as Hailey cried on it by herself. Colby straightens up when seeing Jenna in my arms. Hailey stops her cries and at us with sadness. I know things aren't so great between them.

Hanna walks past me and rushes up the stairs. "She is okay," I said to them before they ask. They both shook their head. I walk up to Jenna's room and find Hanna already arranging her bed. I lay her on it and pull the duvet over her.

Hanna presses the palm of her hand on Jenna's forehead. "She's hot Shawn," she said in a panic.

I stand up to go but Hanna beat me to it. She was quick to get to the door. I sigh and sit back on the bed beside her.

After five minutes Hanna rushes inside with a basin of cold water and a flannel. I watch as she moved around to tend to Jenna's fever. For every two-three minute, I watch her change the cold water and squeeze the flannel before putting it on her head. She did it for like an hour as I sit there and watch helplessly.

Last week when Jenna fell into a coma Hanna was overstressed. She cries and hardly has time to sleep or eat. Jenna may regret and hated her mother, but she doesn't know that Hanna loves her.

In the past years, I watched Hanna suffer.

When Jenna first left our pack Hanna and Joziah regret the ugly treatment of their daughter and the abuse, they made her go through.

I've witnessed it with my own eyes. How the perfect family of three fell apart. How Mr. and Mrs. Harrison drew apart. They were pretty much devastated especially when they found out that I was the mate, and I was with the Luna and have a son.

I remember that moment. Her father punches me three times and Hanna gave me a bitch slap of a lifetime. However, when Jenna returns Joziah and Hanna instead of loving her neglect her again. They pretend not to care but deep down inside they were worried. When an incident led to Sophie throwing a fit against Jenna. Everyone believed and took Sophie's side.

That was my mistake too.

I try to make my mate apologize for something that she didn't do and urge her to fix things with her family which turns out pretty bad because she then believes that I was on Sophie's side too.

Again, I made her feel unloved.

I should have just shut up and been there for her. Jenna again runs away from us. Her family once again had fallen apart and at that time her parents drifted away from Sophie.

As for Sophie, she changed a lot. Despite her having a mate and a baby on the way, it never makes her fully happy. Her perfect ideal family has fallen apart and her sister ran away. When Jenna returns her family then was united. They were trying to fix things with her. unfortunately, things didn't end well.

Before Sophie mend things with her sister, she died when giving birth to her pup. Ken took his pup away because he didn't want to live in pain there. Jenna's parents then tried their best to be there for Jenna. However, Jenna still thought they were just acting.

The abuse and rejection she had from them in the previous year's made her refuse to believe their act of redemption.

While she is still hanging on a thread, I once again was the one who pushed her to the edge and destroyed it all. Everyone's efforts were then got to waste. When she needed me and my attention, I was busy giving it to Hailey and my son.

I didn't know that she was still hurt by my relationship with Hailey and having a son. When Jenna needed me the most in her life, I chose to tend to Hailey who was about to go into labor.

I left her while she was in heat. I left her when she was deeply wounded. She may have waited to give me her first kiss, first break, first love, and her heart but she was a woman filled with scars.

I remembered what Jenna told me after that night. The boiling point of our end. I remember that day vividly how she looks me in the eyes and told me, 'we don't break others by what we do to them physically. It is the emotions and feelings that we used to break and kill someone's soul.

I want to disclose all her scars and love her. However, I failed miserably as her mate. I made so many mistakes that I deeply regret.

Coming out of my thoughts I saw Hanna is about to go replaced the water.

"Mrs. Harrison" I stop her when she gets up to do it again. "You should rest. I'll take from here," I told her.

"No" she refuses and try to do it, but I stopped her again.

"I will do it. Please let me."

"Fine, I will go cook a soup," she said.

The door opens and Colby came in. "You don't need to do it, Hanna. Hailey has offered to do it. So, please go rest," said Colby.

Mrs. Harrison looks back at Jenna before she turns and nods her head at us. She then walks out of the door. I grab the basin and the flannel cloth.

"You stay here with her. I'll go fetch it" I nod my head no to Colby. "I will do it. How are the kids?" I ask Colby.

"Did Hans ask for me?" Colby shook his head no. "I took them to Hailey's parents. They will be back tomorrow" he said.

"You and Hailey?"

"She's still trying to fix it, but I don't know what to do anymore," Colby answered. "She needs to earn that Luna title again," he added before letting out a heavy sigh.

I pat him on the shoulder. "Give her one more chance and don't be too hard on yourself," I said before walking out of the room.

After replacing the cold water and flannel. I walk to the fridge to look for an ice pack, unfortunately, there's none. I went back to Jenna's room. When I reached it, I stood outside for another minute before slowly opening the door. I was surprised to find her awake.

I take a deep breath and look back at Colby. He stood up from the seat looking between the two of us.

"I'll leave you two to be alone," said Colby.