The Would She Gave

Xylo's POV

I ran after her. With the wound that she gave me, it somehow changed and affected my speed that I had difficulty on following her. Her speed has improved, it is great as compared to the last time I saw her running. Her combat skills have probably improved too. Judging the way she stabbed me and the depthness that it reached, her physical abilities are way better than before. She did changed a lot.

It felt like I lost her for a decade, and now she is different from the way she used to be. I am not really sure if I am liking her change. She is not the same fragile woman, she was braved today. Of course, I am amazed to see her confident and brave...but it is kind of hurtful knowing that she does not need me anymore to protect her. Protecting her, which I failed to do so in that night, was one of things that I dreamt on doing.

Now, it seems like she does not need anyone anymore and it sucks. It hurts. It fucking hurt when I saw the determination in her eyes to stab me. There was no inhibitions linger in her eyes when she stabbed me, she was sure that she could do it. I never have seen her before to be that determine to hurt anyone. I guess, time has changed her...or something has happened that made her changed. I wish we could talk about it, I wish she could tell me what happened and what turned her to be like that...because all I could think is that it is my fault, that she was angry with me, and that I failed to be the man that she needs. It is painful.

When I found her once again, probably because she had stopped from running, she is with the same man earlier. She is hugging him. Her back is facing me with her face resting in that man's chest. The sight of them made me stop on my foot. I stayed on the dark, with few meters away from them.

What have I done to make her distant to me? What made her love another man? Did he fill up all the lacking that I have?

Right here, with the sight of them under the lunar eclipse, made my knees weakened. I want to go out of here and punch that man for holding the woman that I want to hold and care for. I want to be that wolf that holding her. All these things happening make me crave for more, to wish for more. I guess, I am as greedy as anyone, craving to gain more things.

Now that I am here, looking at them, I now realized that it was him. It was his scent that mixed with Clary's scent in the falls It was him that joined Clary for visiting the falls. The thoughts of it made my heart dropped. That falls is a very special place for Clary, I know it without her saying it. Was he then that important to her to bring him to falls?

My heart sank. It was our place, it should only be our place...but she brought some man. My heart starts to itch with that thought.

From my peripheral vision, I saw Carlos running. He is in his wolf form, but then changed into his human form when he found me.

"I'm sorry, Alpha. I was outsmarted by that wolf," he bowed his head as he said those words.

I nodded. I ordered him to follow that man who was hugging Clary. I wanted to find out who he is and what is his intention with Clary.

"Alpha, you are bleeding!" He panicked but I only raised my finger to let him know that I am fine. It was just a wound on my thigh, it will not kill me. I am too focused for the other parts of my body that is aching at this moment. Particularly, my heart.

"Were you stabbed by him, too?" He asked in a serious tone and he was full of worry.

That made me looked at him. I found him holding his abdomen with the wound caused by dagger. That man has probably stabbed him, he was dangerous. Earlier, I ordered Carlos to not hurt anyone. He did probably obey me by the looks of that man who has not received any wounds.

"Let's go home, you'll be needing a doctor," I said to Carlos. The amount of blood that has dripped out of his wound is too many to be ignored.

"I'll be fine. Are we done here?" He asked.

I shook my head and looked once again at Clary. She was still hugging that man, made my heart crumpled once again. I cannot believe that I will be finding her again, but this time, she is being held by another man. I could only wish that I was him.

When Carlos looked at the same direction where I am looking, I saw him looked surprised. His mouth flew open a bit.

"She really is alive..." He said that to himself. He looked relieve, probably because he confirmed in his own eyes that I am right and I am not losing my mind for believing someone who has been declared dead to be alive.

I might not be insane for thinking that...but with all the things that had happened tonight, I felt like I will be losing my mind. The anger in her eyes makes me lose my mind. Her stabbing me makes me lose my mind, but I would let her to do it over and over again if it will make her better. I don't mind dying in her hands, I just want her to be okay.

"She's angry..." I probably said that out loud.

"Makes sense, knowing that you will be marrying her sister who has attempted to kill her by breaking her bones."

It made me turn at him.