Broken

Xylo's POV

The moment I heard her name, my heart started beating fast as I rushed over towards the Vertina's Place. I could feel different emotions within me, I will see her again, the happiness is overwhelming but there is fear that crowding my system.

I was disappointed when I saw no one in the place but then I remembered the waterfalls, she must have gone there. I run as fast as I could not minding my surroundings but I feel Mr. Vertina followed me.

I stopped when I found her holding a dagger. I was shocked to see it full of blood. Her clothes was full of blood, too. She was bleeding but it seems like she is not feeling the pain from it.

I was about to take a step towards Clary when I freezes on my spot, I felt my world stopped, shocked to see the most empty look in her eyes... I have never seen her wearing those emotionless eyes, she was never empty before. She was always full of emotions that made me fall in love with her, her eyes were always full of different emotions, may it be good or bad... but the emptiness in those eyes of her right  now was beyond frightening. She was not herself anymore, something has influenced her to become that person.

I saw Andrea too, lying on the ground and is bleeding anywhere. I couldn't believe that Clary was able to do it, I cannot believe that she was capable of hurting others now. It was hard to believe but the dagger in her hand says everything.  Her emotionless cold eyes are telling me she did it.

She was about to stab Andrea again and I was sure that it would kill her if that will land directly to her sister. That was the time when I dashed towards Clary and hugged her, hoping that she would return to her normal self again. My heart stings with the sight of her doing things like these. My heart stings because she has changed a lot and I have no idea what was her reason. It hurts because I cannot understand her. It hurts to see her like this, as if there was no light in her... she was lifeless, but her body is fully functioning as if her soul... her heart has gone somewhere, I hugged her tight.

I've been dreading to do this to her, but right now, all I think is that I just want her to stop and go back as the Clary I know... full of light.

"Clary, it's fine now." I said while she was still trying to get away from my arms and trying advance towards her sister. She was using her force to get away from me and  I can't deny that she is really strong that I have to hold her even more for her not to commit a thing that she will regret sooner.

"What is happening here?" Her father asked, sounding so confused with everything that is happening around. He sounded worried too, both for Clary and Andrea. I cannot blame him, I was also confused. I have never seen Clary with the bloodlust running within her.

"So, you are protecting her now huh?" Clary, with the loathe in her eyes, looked at me. She was accusing me and madness was evident in her voice.

Damn. I do not want to see her looking at me with those anger in her eyes. I felt weak with that kind of gaze she is giving me. I felt frail with it. She could feel anything with me, but not anger. It was devastating to see her being mad at me. What did I do to make her mad like this? Was it because I stopped her from killing her sister? But... why is she killing her sister in the first place? What did Andrea do for Clary to act like this? She is full of wrath inside of her.

"Clary... You need to calm." I found myself saying those words, she was breathing heavily with the anger within her. It was difficult to see her like this and I don't know what to do but hug her even more tighter.

"Dad, please take him out of my way." She said coldly and my fear increased even more. My heart stings with her words, too. She doesn't want me, it is like I am nothing to her... I want the old her, she has changed a lot but she is still the girl that I love, the girl I wanted to spend my life with no matter how much she has changed. My heart didn't changed a bit. It was still her and will always be.

"Please stop, Clary. You'll kill your sister if you don't stop..." Her father responded to her, probably he was able put things together.

She laughed at the remark of his father, just then I felt my chest being wet with her tears probably falling from her eyes. Next thing, she was already sobbing continuously, and it was heartbreaking to hear her cries, I felt like my heart got stabbed a million times.

I wanted to comfort her... I wanted to know the pain she felt, I want her to share the burden she is feeling right now, I let her go out of my arms and held both of her shoulders, trying to look at her eyes. Her eyes was red because of crying, she looks miserable and helpless and I have never seen her crying this much. Her cries were heavy and it made my chest even heavier. Seeing her cry makes me want to end everything that was causing her to cry, if that would make her stop. "Baby... what's wrong? Tell me please." I plead, I wanted to know... I wanted to kill that bastard who caused her pain... I want to end her pain but I don't know anything.

Damn, Clary. What happened with you? I wanted to ask more but I can't do so.

"S-she... orchestrated my assassination... she d-did it, w-why are you all teaming up against m-me?" She said in between her sob.

Her words made me furious. I clenched my jaw upon hearing her. The anger started to build up within me, that makes sense why she was this angry.

I looked furiously at that damn woman. She was coughing blood but still manage to smile, not defending herself from Clary's word. I clenched my fist, trying to not let my emotions affect me right now. My hand trembled from it wanting to kill her, oh God knows how much I was controlling myself now. It was hard suppressing myself especially if it is about the woman I love.

Damn. It's hard to control myself, but I cannot let Clary ruin her life by killing her sister. I cannot let her suffer from that and I don't want her to be miserable for the rest of her life.

I tried to raise my trembling hand and was trying to wipe her tears, hoping that it would somehow make both of us calm... but she slapped my hand away from her and it made my heart sunk. It was just a slap in my hand but my heart feels like it was stabbed.

"Still protecting her, Crosswind?" She asked, with the loathe in her voice. She was still crying and heaven knows how much I want to stop those fucking tears from rolling out of her eyes.

She was mad at me and to think that it was her first time saying my surname made me terrified. I was terrified to answer her, I want to tell her that I would kill that woman if it will make her feel better... but I am afraid that I will still do it without her approval. I was afraid that I will kill her sister right now without her words because I am so much tempted to do so. I grieved for the girl I love for I could no longer define how long, not knowing that the killer was just roaming around my pack that just added to my anger, anger was just an understatement to all the pain I have suffered from losing her.

"It's not tha-"

"SHE KILLED OUR CHILD!" She interrupted me.

I freezes as if the world had stopped as I processed her words, our child... our child as it echoed in my head trying to comprehend it.

Goddamn it! Fuck!

That was when I lose my self, because I was able to understand it... I was able to clearly understand Clary. My flesh tremble out of anger and pain as I clenched my fist. Fuck.

Clary's POV

I can't believe they are teaming up against me, so out of anger, my tongue slipped.

But I did not believe what just happened next, it was out of my expectation as I looked at Alpha Xylo.

His body trembled in anger and I can see the pain radiates in him as he dashed in one corner and punched the tree. It was full of force which made his hand bleed from it. Just as I saw a tear started coming out from his eyes that ripped my heart into pieces.

Tha was the first time I saw him broken.