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Derek Pov

We've been looking for her for days without success. She was nowhere. She was swallowed up by the earth. The third night without her began. It was killing me. I've been going insane. I was so worried that I was breaking a little more inside every minute. I either wanted to live with her or not live at all.

A squad just got back to the house. Happy troops sought them at any time of the day. And again without success. I cried out in anger again. Cole and Hunter were very concerned about me and tried to distract me, but all I could think about was them. I felt like she needed me. Something must have happened to her. Chris helped where he could, but he still didn't want to tell me why she didn't accept me.

Everything just pissed me off. I just wanted to smell her lovely scent. I wanted to hold her in my arms again. I wanted to inhale her scent. I wanted to tag them to show everyone how lucky I was. No one but me should be allowed to calm her down. Everyone should look at her and envy me. I wanted to proudly walk her around to show everyone that she's taken. I just wanted her.

I went to the garden. Fresh air was good for me. I closed my eyes enjoying it and took a deep breath. It smelled of forest roses, vanilla and raspberries. Kim. She lives. Oh God. I had to go to her. I ran without transforming. I didn't think of it. I hear Cole and Hunter behind me. But I didn't care. I had finally found her. It was her smell. She is here somewhere. I hand it and feel it. Don't worry my angel I will find you. If someone hurt her hair, I'll kill them.

There was something covered in mud next to a tree trunk. I ran there. Kim. Her naked body was covered in leaves, mud and co. She didn't move. Panic rose up in me.

"Kim?" I said cautiously. Cole and Hunter appeared.

"Is she alive?" Hunter asked cautiously. I felt her pulse. She lives. Thank God. But she passed out, so she looks very weak and helpless. I immediately took off my shirt and put it on her. Nobody was allowed to see her like that. Just me. Nobody should see her with less. I carefully picked up the almost lifeless body. She dares almost nothing. Her cheekbones stood out strongly. She looked so emaciated. What happened? Oh God. Why did I let her go? I'll never leave her alone again. Never again.

I carried her carefully towards the Packhouse. Her breathing became weaker and shallower. Hardly anything could be heard. Crap. Panic rose again. I need her. I tensed up in a panic.

"Kim?! Kim? Don't leave me. I need you. Stay with me. Please." I whispered to her. Cole and Hunter didn't even try to take them from me or help me, otherwise I'd rip them to pieces. No one will touch her now but me. I won't give them up anytime soon.

Her breathing returned to normal. I calmed down a bit and relaxed as well. There were already some wolves at the packhouse. Everyone looked at me pityingly, but I didn't want pity. I wanted kim to wake up. I carried her to my room and laid her gently on the bed. The doctor came right away and examined her.

"Derek. She hasn't eaten much in the last few days and is also very upset. She has collapsed from lack of everything. She needs to rest and regain her strength for the first time. All she needs is time. She will wake up again, but unfortunately I can't say when she will wake up again." she said and looked at me sadly. I nodded as a sign that I understood that she should leave the room. I went to Kim and sat next to her. My hand rested on her pale cheek.

"Everything will be fine, darling, everything will be fine. You're safe. I'm here for you." I said softly. I lay down next to her and just stared at her. I was finally able to relax again. I haven't been able to shut my eyes or calm down since she's gone. The idea that something had happened to her drove me insane. But now she was safe with me. Nobody will harm her here.

She nestled peacefully against me. Her delicate head rested on my chest. Your arms also complain on my chest. I put my arms around her and gently pulled her towards me. I was afraid she would break when I saw her. She was so petite and fragile. You should never hurt her because she was very sensitive. I will always treat her like a queen, no like a goddess, no matter what.

"No one will hurt you. I promise. My little princess." I gently stroked her hair. She pressed closer to me. She is so beautiful. Your pure and delicate skin. Her pink full lips. You ice blue eyes. her curvy figure. Who was perfect and sexy. Everything is just perfect. I am the happiest wolf in the world. of the universe.

I gently and lovingly pressed my rough lips to her forehead. I closed my eyes enjoying it. My whole body trembled with happiness. In my stomach for a roller coaster. I was deeply relaxed like never before. With her I could be free. How come? I don't know it. Every time around her I felt free. As if there were no worries. As if there were only us and time stood still.

I slowly closed my eyes. My lips were still resting on her forehead. Everything was so peaceful. It should always be like this. I fell asleep happy and relaxed...

Warmth. I felt warmth near me. She was pleasant. Enjoying it, I nestled even closer to my heat source, if that was even possible. My mind was empty. No thoughts. No questions. Nothing. And again I fell into the black...

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It got chilly next to me. Where's the warmth gone? I wanted to open my eyes, but somehow it didn't work. Again I tried to open my eyes but couldn't. I tried to raise my arm but couldn't. I was like me. Why can't I move? What happened? Again and again I tried to move, but it just didn't work. I tried with all my might, but I failed again and again. What about me? am i dead What happened? I panicked. My heart started racing. My chest rose and fell. Always and always faster. I needed to calm down, but how? If only I knew where I am? What's happened? Why can't I move?

I thought and thought. And then I remembered. I was on the run. Fleeing from him. A shiver ran through me. Goosebumps formed rapidly. I was still scared of him. would he find me again Has he found me yet? was i with him My heartbeat got faster and faster again. My panic came back. Oh God. What if I'm with him? He would hurt me for my behavior. I was breathing more and more frantically. I wanted to scream but couldn't. I couldn't get a sound out. I couldn't even open my mouth. He was frozen.

While trying to escape, I tripped and fell. I didn't know what happened after that. I had no memories of it. Everything was black. I still felt the stabbing pain in my foot. It hurt so bad.

For a long time I tried to move, say something or scream. I got weaker over time. My strength was gone. I could not anymore.

A noise pulled me out of my thoughts. It was a door. Someone opened the door. Loud footsteps. My heart wanted to start racing again, but the smell. I knew him. He was very familiar. Warmth spread through my body. The mattress buckled and sagged a little. I radiated warmth next to me. The heat source. She was back. Someone wrapped his arms around me and gently and gently pulled me close. My heart calmed down again and became one with the heartbeat of my counterpart. My head rested on his chest. I listened to his heartbeat. He was even and calm. He calmed me down immediately.

I wanted to go back to sleep, but the smell wouldn't let me go. How did I know him? It smelled like leaves, moss, forest and yet male. This smell drew me to it like a magnet. Wait. Like a magnet? my mate? Derek? Did he find me? Did he keep me safe? Was he my savior?

He put his lips on my forehead and kissed her briefly, but still lovingly.

"Please. Wake up. Please. I need you Kim." came the soft voice of Derek. His voice was very low and on the verge of breaking. So he had found me. Relief spread. God I thank him so much. He hadn't dumped me and looked for someone better despite my disregard for him. I had hurt him deeply and ignored him, driving him to despair. Because of me he had cruel hours and days. Suddenly I felt terrible. What have I done? How could I be so selfish? In my eyes I was right, but he had a right to know why it couldn't work, why it couldn't work, why it just wasn't possible.

"Kim? Maybe you can hear me. Please wake up. I miss you. Your smile. Your bright eyes. Everything about you. Even if you glare at me and your nostrils curl up. I just need you. Feel without you I feel so empty. Please. Come back to me." he whispered almost inaudibly. His voice was shaky and full of sadness. Was he really serious? Did he have such a huge desire for me as I did for him? Did he feel the same as me? Were we similar when I thought? No. That's impossible. It did not work. It couldn't work.