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I tried to move again, this time it worked a bit. I could raise my hand and move my fingers. At least something. I could barely lift it, but managed to smack it lightly, very lightly-almost not felt or felt-against his chest. But it probably looked like an unnoticed caress, even if it took a lot of strength. But still he seemed to notice.

"Kim? Can you hear me? Kim? Please give me a sign that you're alright." he said excitedly. I wanted to hit again, but again it didn't work. I wanted to show him that I was okay. I didn't want him to worry.

"Arrrgg..." escaped me as I was about to scream. He pulled me closer. I wanted to answer him, but I couldn't. I had no more strength. I could not anymore. Everything. Everything takes away my strength. I got dizzy. I still hear noises. derek He was talking, but I didn't understand anything. I wanted to stay, but I was getting dizzy. Everything was spinning in my head and then I fell into a deep black hole...

Derek Pov

I had to leave my room and take a shower. I spent the last two days with her. She didn't wake up. The doctor didn't know what was going on. Damned. I was so worried. She was totally pale and emaciated. I wanted to help her, but how? Who did all this to her? Whoever it was, I will kill him.

I quickly made my way back to her. I didn't want to leave her alone. If she wakes up, I have to be there. Even if she didn't accept me, or says she didn't, she needed me. Every time she snuggled up to me and visibly enjoyed my closeness.

I laid down next to her, but this time something was different. She looked different. Tense. Her heart raced. What's up? is she awake What about her? Again she snuggled up to me, but this time stronger. I kissed her briefly but lovingly on the forehead. She enjoyed it. I felt it.

"Please. Wake up. Please. I need you Kim." I whispered hotter. If I spoke louder, my voice broke. I didn't have enough strength.

"Kim? Maybe you can hear me. Please wake up. I miss you. Your smile. Your bright eyes. Everything about you. Even if you glare at me and your nostrils curl up. I just need you. Feel without you I feel so empty. Please. Come back to me." I said quietly again after a long time. My voice was about to break. She tensed again. What's up? Did I say something wrong? did she hear me I had to do something to calm her down. But what? I gently pulled her closer to me. She calmed down again. That fact made me proud. she wanted me And how. But she just needed time. I'll give her all the time in the world she needs as long as she doesn't leave me. I needed her more than she could imagine.

I looked at her. Her beauty could be seen no matter how pale or emaciated she looked. She is the most beautiful woman in the world. Her blond hair was wild on my chest. I wish she would open her beautiful blue eyes and beam at me like she always does. She always wanted to be cool, but her eyes still lit up when she saw me. like stars.

She flattered my chest very lightly. did she hear me Is she OK? Is she finally waking up? I was happy and just hoping. She is strong. She will wake up again. I just know it.

"Kim? Can you hear me? Kim? Please give me a sign that you're alright." I said excitedly. Please let her wake up. i needed her I needed everything about her. Her beautiful eyes, her honest manner, her laughter, her closeness. All of that made me happy. Only when she is well could I be relaxed and happy with her.

She tensed. She probably wanted to move again and give me a sign. I was about to say something to her when a few soft noises came over her mouth. But what did that mean? Was she good or bad? Was she in pain? I pulled her a little closer to me again. She relaxed. But then. Her heart slowed. She no longer tensed. She became totally relaxed. Her chest rose and fell very slowly. And always slower. What's up? Help.

"Kim? Stay with me. Don't go. You have to be strong. You hear. Stay with me. Please. I need you." I said softly. Tears formed in my eyes. I just need her I don't want to live without her. I tensed. She mustn't die now. No. My sweet must stay with me.

"HELP. PLEASE. DOCTOR. NOW." I screamed as loud as I could. She kept getting pale. Her heart was barely beating. She was getting colder...

Kims Pov

A beautiful clearing in a huge forest. Lush green grass on the ground and blooming flowers of all colors. Fresh air blows through my hair and through the green leaves of the large, magnificent trees, which gave a rustling sound. Butterflies fly in the wind. Birds fly and chirp happily around. In the middle of the clearing sat an old tree. He was not only tall but also broad and with his magnificent crown he cast shadows. A swing hung from a thick branch. The wind blew something in the air. Everything seemed so familiar to me. But from where?

I slowly walked towards the swing. The closer I got, the more familiar it all seemed. I stretched out my arm to grab the swing. I touched the thick rope of the swing. Suddenly. A thousand memories of this place. Earlier. When my mother was still alive. We have stayed here often as a family. We spent hours walking here. I came here when I wanted to be alone. Nobody knew where I was. only my mother She always came over here and wanted to talk to me. She was always there for me.

A tear formed in my eye and slowly rolled down my cheek. At the same time, a smile formed. All the memories of my mother were back in my head, at the same time I was happy to be here again. I love this place more than anything. Time stands still here. I always felt safe and free here. Nobody could harm me here. If I could I would never go again.

I walked a little closer to the swing and sat down. I slowly started to swing. The wind blew my hair into my face. The feeling of freedom was back. I closed my eyes and stretched my arms out. I took a deep breath of the fresh summer air. Everything was peaceful.

"You're about to fall, darling." came a familiar voice. This voice. It couldn't be. No. That did not work. I recognize this voice among thousands, no billions. I snapped my eyes wide open. She stood in front of me and smiled happily at me. She wore her favorite dress. Her shoulder length brown hair was perfect as always. No. That couldn't be. She was dead. Already so long.

"Mom?" my voice was shaking and low. Tears formed in my eyes. The first rolled down my cheek. Egg. Sobs escaped my throat. She nodded. More tears came from !one eye.

"Don't cry, darling." she said softly as always and came up to !I. She hugged me in her arms. I really enjoyed it. Bach years ago I had them again.

Forever we stood there and hugged each other. I finally got her back. I will never go again. Never again.

"Darling. Don't cry. I'll always be with you, but now. Now you have to go back. Fight my love." she said smack. I didn't want to leave. I wanted to stay with her. Here I was happy. Here I was free. Here I could be what I am.

"No. I don't want to go. I want to stay here." I said firmly. She looked at me sadly.

"Later. We'll meet again later, but now you have to fight. Fight for you. Fight for Chris and your father. Fight for Derek. They need you. You can't stay here. I don't want you here. I do, that you go to them. They need you and you need them." she said carefully and took me in her arms.

"I need you." I whispered to her chest. Tears rolled down my cheek. In the meantime I had calmed down a bit, but I still cried a little.

"I love you. Forever. But you have to go. Fight for your life. You won't be happy here, you'll be lonely. Right now you might want to be alone, but soon. Soon you'll feel better and then. Then you will regret everything." she said again. I looked up at her. She looked at me pleadingly. I couldn't help it. She was right. I had to fight. I nodded to her with tears in my eyes. I didn't want to leave here. She looked at me happily. I had to fight but how. how do i get back

"How am I supposed to get back?" I asked her desperately.

"You'll find out. If you want it, you can do it. Believe in yourself." she said and disappeared. She was just wounded. Without being able to say goodbye. I wanted to see her. I yelled here. My throat burned like hell. My face was probably red from crying. My eyes hurt. Desperate, I let myself slide behind the tree. I buried my face in my hands.

"Why me? I can't take it anymore." I said desperately to myself. Believe in you. came my mother's voice. fought. I had to fight. I got up. The wind blew through my hair again. My tears were quickly dried by this one. I walked away from the tree. How am I supposed to get back from here? A strong wind came. Everything in me relaxed. I closed my eyes again and stretched. Everything was so liberating. This feeling. I just wanted it.

Everything around me grew quieter until I couldn't hear anything anymore. I got a little dizzy again. Finally, I was torn into a deep black hole. Am I dead now?