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Also breath we broke apart from each other. He looked deep into my eyes and I into his. They shone at me like twinkling stars. Wow. Simply divine. You amaze me every time. They tell me sighted. Stories of lust, love, sadness or sorrow. Anything.

Again he placed his soft lips on mine. But this time lovingly and not so lustfully or passionately.

"Oh how sweet." a voice squeaked, tearing us apart. I looked in the direction of the noise, confused. sina She stood in the doorway with Chloé and looked at us with quivering eyebrows. Chloé grinned at us. I blushed instantly and buried my face in Derek's shirt. He laughed and his chest vibrated. I blushed even more, which luckily nobody saw. Why did they have to come into the room right now? Argg.

"Well, we didn't want to disturb you with your making out.." I immediately turned tomato red. Sina backed up and I just knew that Chloé had just wrapped her eyebrows. Derek just chuckled again, so I punched him in the chest. But as fate would have it, he just laughed harder.

"..but we wanted to go training now." Sina completed Chloe's sentence, giggling.

"Okay. Shall we go?" asked Derek. I got up so Derek could get up. He looked at me questioningly. Probably to reassure himself that I really wanted to go with him and that's what I wanted too. I wanted to enjoy the last time with him, after all I didn't know how much longer we had. I nodded.

I followed Sina to the patio door when two strong arms grabbed my waist. derek This bastard. He threw me over his shoulder. I pounded on his back, hoping he would let me down. But he just laughed and walked out of the house with me. Fresh air enveloped me and stopped my pounding around. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath in and out of this fresh air. I haven't been outside since yesterday, but it felt like forever. It just struck me that I haven't been outside as a wolf for a long time. I should go out again soon and let my wolf out.

"Please put me down." I begged Derek.

"Nop." he laughed and carried me further into a dense clearing of Packhaus. The others were already there. When they saw us, they looked at me and Derek with grins and wiggled their eyebrows. Did I miss something or what? Or wait. Was that because of the kiss in the schoolyard yesterday? After all, I had refused to accept him and fought back with all my might and a week later I was snogging the same guy I didn't want to accept in the schoolyard. Weird, is not it? Destiny betrays me again and again. Sometimes for good, sometimes for bad. I hope there's something good next. As is well known, hope dies last. Now all I needed was hope and then everything would be perfect. Optimistic right? I, MS. Optimism. Well probably he MS. Pessimism. But whatever. I should rather use the good time right now and not think. At least I should try. It will work out.

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They've all been fighting each other for half an hour and that's what they call training. But whatever. I admired my great view. Because the boys wore no tops but only sports pants, which is why you could see their super hot upper bodies. I just say drool alert. Although I don't care about the others, just Derek. His abdominal muscles tightened with the movements. He just looked good enough to eat with his six pack. He was just damn hot. Ersa looking like a fucking

sex god. Although. I didn't even know he really was a sex god, but from the looks of him he sure was.

"Don't drool sweetie." derek's voice sounded, tearing me out of my thoughts. He had caught me at the strong. Shit. I blushed slightly and looked at the floor. He laughed and came over to me. Two fingers lifted my chin.

"It's all yours anyway and you can continue to pine on it at any time. It only distracts me a little when I'm training." he breathed. I blushed even more and gently hit the ground again. He just laughed. Well wait bastard.

"I can also stare at one of the others if that doesn't distract you anymore." I breathed and grinned triumphantly. I had him 180 degrees in two seconds now. His expression darkened and he looked at me warningly.

"Blame yourself." I said, still grinning triumphantly. He was still looking at me with his dark expression. I grinned even wider and gave him a kiss on the cheek. He was petrified so I got up and walked towards maggy and Sina who were fighting. Chloé stood by and celebrated them both. Logical.

"We're still talking about that." Derek called after me. I grinned myself wider. He should learn not to mess with the fires. As easily as I could manipulate him in terms of spells and counters, he could upset me, but he didn't. How come? Well, he always tries to embarrass me and I always try to make him jealous, which is how I proved to him over and over how much he actually loves me. And that was my confirmation. He loves me. That's all I need. his love. Not more. But one more thing. He should be fine, otherwise I could never sleep again without worrying and breaking. No matter what will happen, I will always love him. And I had to tell him that before it all broke, because of Ryder. I didn't know when that was going to happen. But those three words, twelve letters, and whole feelings had yet to be said before it would happen. I wanted to make him happy one last time before everything would break down. One last and maybe my first time where I would make him happy. Did I ever make him happy? After all, I had worried him so much, disappeared for days and closed myself off to him. I never deserved it. He deserved better. One that never hurt him. One who could love him unconditionally. One that would have no secrets. One that would be perfect for him. I'm the opposite of that. Neither had I caused him no worries, nor did I have any secrets from him. I only had secrets and made secrets from him from the first second. I was too bad for him. Maybe he'll be better after Ryder got me.

What was I thinking? Of course I wasn't perfect, but he loves me. The way I am. He always stood by me no matter what I did. Whether cut off or locked. He had never given up on me and fought for me. He feels just like me. we need each other We love each other. We only want each other. We are meant for each other. I'll find out why just us. There will be a reason.