The War She Craves

It was midnight when we got home to the penthouse. We were both quiet, I don’t know his reason, but I was like I wanted to explode.

“I’m sleeping at the guestroom,” I blandly spoke while removing my heels as soon as we entered.

"What's your goddamn problem, Elyse?" he scowled. I glanced at him with blank eyes.

“You’ve been walking around the party with that attitude. There are medias and eyes are everywhere. What the fuck were you thinking huh? ”

I gritted my teeth as I look at him. I was overwhelmed by the anger and pain I felt. I had to keep it all inside, that’s why I just walked into his direction while holding my heels.

I brought my face slightly closer to his and whispered, "I'm just mirroring your attitude towards me."

His brows met each other. I smirked before leaving but he stopped my arms. I felt the tightness of his grip so the expression on my face changed. His eyes are burning with irritation but I didn’t mind.

“What are you? A damn kid? Did I marry a fucking child, huh? ” His nose flared up.

I stared and was stunned by what he said. I grabbed his hold on my arm, just to leave a statement. It would be like an insult if he made me feel like this up to this point.

“Well, pity you for marrying a child like me,” I said with no emotion.

I just wanted to leave because I was tired of discussions. I just feel so tired and hurt. What else does he want to happen?

"Who the fuck is Leon huh?"

He again restrained me as I attempted to leave. My head immediately turned to him for uttering that name. Leon? Leon Fortunato?

He smirked evilly. “Right? Is that the man you were doing while I'm away? ”

”What? What are you saying Gael? Leon is a friend. I met him at— ”

"I don't care," he said firmly and tightened his grip on me.

“You really want to drag my name in some scandals, Elyse? Just when the campaign was about to start. Huh? ”

I squinted because of the pain. I hope that’s the only pain he could give me. Because that pain is nothing from the pain I’m getting from his words.

“I don’t care about you and your boy-toys. Know your purpose here, young lady. You asked for this, remember? ” His deep voice sent shivers down to my body. I just swallowed and avoided looking at him.

He violently released me before leaving me in the living area. I faintly sat on the arms rest of the couch. I looked at my arms that was left by his hand mark. I caressed it softly while tears started falling like crazy.

For the two weeks that we’ve been together before he left for US, he always treats me coldly, almost like I’m sort of air for him. So right now, I’m kind of pained but his actions towards me. Maybe, he’s just tired? Or stressed because of his family a while ago? I don’t know.

-

“Stop justifying his actions, Elyse. An asshole is an asshole, nothing more and nothing else.” Olivia preached to me again.

We met for some important matters. We will fix a few things regarding the business we want to start. We’re just waiting for our architect here in a coffee shop.

”I just want to give him the benefit of the doubt. I know him. He’s not like that, ” I replied and sipped at my frappe. She hissed and rolled her eyes.

“And besides, it’s my fault too. I pushed his buttons, that’s why he got so mad.” I added more.

She banged the table so my eyes went to her. She even got the attention of people around us because of what he did.

“Why should I even wonder? You’ve been covering up that man ever since like forever, ” she said.

“I don't know what you saw on that man. I get It, okay? Handsome, rich and all! But look at him, a complete asshole. ”

I pouted. "Stop calling my husband an asshole."

"Tss!" she sipped her milk tea and shook her head like she was so done of me.

”Boys over me. Always and always, Elyse. ” she added.

I chuckled. I remembered how she convinced me not to marry Gael, that’s when we’re graduating college. I guess that's what she meant when I chose Gael over her.

-

“You’re way to desperate, Elyse. Are you for real? Can you hear yourself?” Olivia was so mad at me.

I ignored her. I continued arranging my belongings as if I had heard nothing from him. I know she’s concern, but that’s the last thing I need now.

“Are you really going for that? Do you even know what situation you’re getting yourself into? ” she continued to lecture me.

I stood after organizing my things to get to my next class. I told her for a moment about the conversation my dad and I had. Based on her reactions, she’s not liking it.

"Let's talk later," I said simply.

”That asshole will use you. Are you even aware of that? ” she harshly said. I glanced at her once.

"I'm not that dumb to not know."

”But you are that dumb to marry him in exchange of his own selfish reasons? Fuck Elyse! Think!" Her tone became louder and I’m sure other students around us could hear her.

I continued walking. Yes. I’m aware. I’m aware of how dumb I am. But that dumbness will surely take me into something that I’ve long for. Maybe it was wrong for him to marry me just because he wanted to escape his responsibility to their family and because he just wanted to get into politics. But don't I have something to gain from it as well?

”Come to think of it, Olivia. It’s not just him who’s using the red card here. This is my chance as well! Is it wrong for me to marry the man I love? ” My voice is so hopeful and desperate.

She looked at me with the hint of amusement and disappointment. I knew at this point her blood was heating up because of what I said.

“Yeah shit? Considering that man is supposed to marry Savannah Li?” She raised a brow at me.

I blinked and continued walking. I don’t want to hear that name. I don't want to think anymore because I'm afraid that when I am convinced by the many reasons around me I will back down from the decision I have already formed in my mind.

”What are you up against there? The Li’s and the Navarro’s are building their strong bond for the sake of their empire. You understand? Don’t involve yourself in their war when you’re living in peace here! ”

I shut my eyes tight and halt my steps. I glanced at her because I want her to see that at this point, any of her words won’t matter.

"I'm craving for war, Olivia." I muttered.

Her jaw dropped and I left her with that expression on her face.

-

I know I hurt her too but that’s the truth. We also didn't talk for a few weeks. I thought that was where our friendship would end, because of my husband.

”And remember skipping our major subject just to stalk him and his girlfriend? You are embarrassing, Elyse. ”

I laughed at his exaggerated reaction. Yes, I remember that. I’ve done a lot of foolish things because of my feelings for Gael. It all started when my brother Jaxon and him became friends.

I’m home schooled when I was lower grade. So apart from dad and brother, he is the only man I see often. I grew fond of him.

”You craved for that asshole. So yeah, you have to endure this all.”

I spaced out after she said that. Suddenly, all those good memories faded and all that’s left in my mind are all the sleepless nights where I cried myself to sleep because of him.

This love is a war. Even the people around me are against him or against us, I’ll fight for him. I’ll fight for us. How I hope that someone will fight for me too.