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From: My Baby

Goodmorning, Baby. Don't skip your meal today. I love you and I miss you.

When I woke up the next day that was what immediately dawned on me. I smiled and typed my reply to him.

To: My Baby

Goodmorning, too. Don't skip your meal today. I love you and I miss you.

When I finished, I immediately got up from the bed because I felt my stomach turning upside down.

I hurried to the bathroom and as soon as I got inside I immediately tapped on the toilet bowl to take out whatever I had eaten yesterday.

After vomiting, I immediately rinsed and washed, then went out of the bathroom to fix what I would wear later. I'm going to the hospital, because Mama has someone to watch over Papa.

After I was done, I went out of the room to have coffee and bread, I would only eat bread. At the hospital I'll probably have breakfast, so that Mama can eat with me. After I finish drinking my coffe and eating my bread, I go back inside my room to take a bath.

After an hour I'm good to go.

I left the hotel room where I was staying and then immediately went straight out of the hotel.

"Ma ..." I said as soon as I entered Papa's hospital room. I caught up with him who was looking out the window as if he was deep in thought, which disturbed him. And I'm worried about her.

"Sariel." Mom turned to me and greeted me with a smile. "Have you eaten yet, son?" Mom asked me while still smiling.

"Not yet." I'm telling the truth.

"Why? You must eat on time. Wait and I'll buy something to eat." mama said to me and then got up from her seat and scooped up what was in her bag. I guess he'll take his wallet. And I was right, he took that out of his wallet.

"I want to eat as much as you do, Ma. So I haven't eaten yet." I reply to Mama.

Mama just smiled at me and then she walked out of the room.

"Watch your dad first. Call a nurse or doctor right away when you notice something in his heartbeat. I'll just buy the chin." after he said that he completely disappeared from my sight.

"You know, Pa. I still can't believe until now that mama and I are okay. I don't know, sometimes I'm confused by what mama is doing, I don't know if that's true or not. But whatever it is, it's gone I still care about that, the only thing that matters to me is that we're okay. " When I talked to papa even though I knew I couldn't get any answer from him and even though I also knew he couldn't hear me.

By the way, it's been half a month since I get in here. And in that half month there was not a day that mama fought me. He never spoke hurtful words to me, unlike before. Mama also accompanies me to the meal. And I also feel like he's making fun of me.

Aius and I haven't seen each other for half a month. We only talk through text and calls and see each other, which doesn't happen every hour because he's busy with the company he takes care of.

It's been a half month, also of waiting. Waiting for my father's heart transplant. Yep! Dad's heart transplant has not yet been performed. Actually, I'm starting to get nervous again. I'm nervous because until now I still haven't talked to or even seen Papa's heart donor. Even its name I do not know. The only thing I know about Dad’s heart donor, is it’s a woman. And ask for a month’s grace before giving up his heart.

I always ask mama what the name of the donor is, I always tease mama to introduce or talk to me about papa's Heart donor, so that I can be thankful. But mama refused. She'll just always say, "No, son. I've been able to say thank you again, and another one. It's busy, because she's bonding with her son. She's recovering first." that's what mama always answered. And I will just keep quiet and sigh because there is nothing more I can do.

"Let's eat, Sariel." I stopped in my thoughts when suddenly I heard Mama's voice. I didn't realize that he had returned.

I quickly followed him. I approached the table he had set and then sat down there and we began to eat.

But we were just in the middle of eating when suddenly I felt a little dizzy and a little upset stomach. I scratched my head and then acted nauseous.

"Are you, okay? Are you sick son?" Mama immediately asked. Concern could be heard in her voice.

I shook my head, because I wasn't really in pain. And another one also stopped inheriting the movement of my stomach. "Nothing, maybe I'm just tired and awake." I said smiling and then I proceeded to eat.

A few moments later I stopped eating again. How could it be that I could feel Mama's earnest stare at me. "Why?" I asked mama in surprise now that I don't know where my mind is, as long as she's staring at me.

"Ma ..." I called again but he still wasn't shaken by looking at me. And honestly speaking, it's creeping me out.

"Ma!" I called quite loudly, and finally he came to his senses.

"B-why?" seemed surprised that Mama asked me.

"Is there a problem?" I will ask.

"H-ha?" Mama answered me and believe it or not, she doesn't seem to be on her own.

"I notice that you've always been stunned these past few days. Is there a problem?" I will ask.

I'm worried about mom. He's always like that.

"Nothing, go ahead and eat there." said Mom. "Wait I'll just come out for a moment, I'll just talk to the doctor." said Mom. I couldn't answer yet because he stood up.

I, on the other hand, continued eating.

After I ate, I arranged my meals and then sat back in the chair next to Dad's bed.

"Well, you'll be able to have a heart transplant in a few weeks. You'll be okay." when I talked to dad.

I know he can't hear me, and I also know he can't answer me, but I still want to tell him.

"Do you know, Pa? I can't wait for you to get well. I've already prepared for our return to the Philippines once you're well, e. Let's start again. Let's start a good life. We're okay with it. Mama. We won't have any problems when you recover. My job is stable. " I said to papa as I held his hand and stared at him.

Honestly, I want to say a lot and tell papa, in case I don't say it now. I just want to tell him those things when he's awake and well.

I just stared at papa for a few minutes and I imagined what my life will be like with mama once he recovers. But I stopped imagining when I heard my cellphone ring.

And as if on cue, I immediately stood up to pick up my cellphone because maybe Aius was calling me.

But as soon as I got up, I was not able to hold on to the back of the chair I was sitting on due to sudden dizziness.

I don't know why, but these past few days I often feel dizzy, but maybe it's just because I'm tired.

I just stood there for a while and when I felt that my eyesight was okay and I no longer felt dizzy I walked closer to the table where we ate earlier to pick up my cellphone.

Excitement flow all over my system. The thought of hearing Aius voice is making me so damn excited for I don't know why. I smiled as I approached the table and picked up my cellphone without stopping to ring.

But the earlier excitement I was feeling died instantly the moment I saw an unregistered number. It wasn't Aius. I thought it's him, who's calling me.

With a shrug I answered the call even though I didn’t know who it was. "Hello? Who's this?"

"Sariel ..." and with just one word from the caller, I don't have to ask anymore who's the caller. I know so much who's the owner of this voice.

I took a deep breath before I spoke. "What do you want, Jared?" I will ask.

And yes it was Jared who called me. I don't know about this man, what else does he need from me? This isn't the first time he's called me since I came here to the U.S. and I've already blocked his number, but Jared is persistent in calling me, because every time he calls me it's different.

"Let's talk, Sariel. Please .." Jared begged.

"Why else? We don't have anything to talk about anymore. We're okay, I'm okay." I said.

"All right, Sariel please. Just this one, after this I won't bother you anymore. I just really need to, please ??" Jared was still carving.

I sighed heavily. "All right, fine. Just this one then you'll stop me." against the inside I said.

I can't do anything anymore, I'm just annoyed. Maybe, he'll stop me after that.

"R-really? Thank you so much, Sariel. I'll just sent you the details of our meeting. Thank you so—"

I didn't finish what he was going to say and rudely just dropped the call, because I felt the intense turning of my stomach.

I quickly ran into the bathroom and then I was nauseous in the toilet bowl.

I just vomited vinegar, and after a while I finally got out as well. Everything I ate I vomited.

I sat down weakly on the floor and then rubbed my stomach.

"Are you pregnant?" And in the middle of my softening it seemed as if a thunder echoed Mama's voice.

He barely said his question, but to me it seemed like a very powerful Bomb exploded in front of me.

"M-ma ...."