45

When I woke up, the smell of ... hospital immediately entered my nose?

Asking that I said in my mind.

And the moment I opened my eyes fully, I was right. I'm really in the hospital.

But who brought me here? The last thing that I remembered is that I fainted outside Aius unit.

Less than a minute later, I immediately looked at the hospital door when it opened and threw Alexander out.

"I brought you here." he said with a cold tone, and for some reason, it send shiver down my spine.

"Y-yeah, I can see that." I just said.

He didn't answer me again when I said that and just shrugged.

"How are you feeling by the way?" he asked after a moment of silent and for some reason his question made me emotional, I got teary eyed.

"A-ah ... fine. I guess?" I just said that because I really don't know. I feel numb.

"You aren't sure?" he said as he looked up at the ceiling. His head rested on the headrest of the sofa he was sitting on.

"Hmm ... definitely I'm not okay. Emotionally and physically. It hurts. Damn fucking hurts, It feels like killing me mentally, emotionally and physically." I smiled bitterly as tears fell in my eyes.

"Painful ... isn't it?" Alexander whispered, but enough for me to hear it.

"Yeah. But I'll endure it .... I wish." I just said. I don’t know the awkwardness of our situation, the stinginess of our responsibilities.

"That's how love works, at first it will let you feel the happiness and satisfaction but in the end ... it will only give you pain. It's like you were just charged for the happy times you experienced." Alexander said.

I looked at him, and I can see that he's sad. Looks like he's broken hearted just like me, huh?

"Why ... have you ever been hurt? Do you even know how to love?" I asked without flickering.

"Do I look like I don't know how to love?" Alexander asked again then he laughed a little and then looked straight into my eyes.

"Yeah ..." I just said.

"If you only know." After he said that silence enveloped us again.

"By the way, where's my things? I need to make a call."

"Just beside your bed."

I was embarrassed to turn to the bedside table. Then I immediately picked up my cellphone and immediately dialed Manager Rubie’s number.

"Yes, dear?" Manager Rubie said.

"Hmm ... are you busy?"

"Not really, why?" Manager Rubie ask on the other line.

"Can ... ah ... you book me a flight for tonight?" I just said.

"The doctor said, you have to spend a day in the hospital. It's for you and your baby's own good." Alexander groaned at him.

"All right, tomorrow afternoon, Manager Rubie."

Manager Rubie asked me many more questions but I refused to answer him and just ended the call, I'm damn tired of explaining, one more thing I don't want to go back to what happened to Aius and me earlier.

Just the thought of him makes my heart ache.

still an ass. I thought he would change because of you. But I guess, I'm wrong, huh. "In the middle of our silence Alexander suddenly said that which made me look at him in astonishment.

"Huh?" takhang usal ko. Who is he pertaining?

"Aius." staring Alexander said to me.

"Huh? W-w-what do you mean?" I stammered, the shock on my face.

"He's still an asshole. Believing on what he sees without any evidence, and being so close minded not to listen and believe to someone's explanation." Alexander said as if he already knew Aius very well, and he was definitely sure of what he was saying.

"How did you say that? Do you know him?"

Alexander laughed a little, causing me to focus my full attention on him out of curiosity.

"So he didn't tell you, huh. I know him ... so much. We were bestfriend ... before that incident happened." Alexander's voice suddenly became sad when he said that.

I looked at him in shock. "You're w-what?" I exclaimed.

"Best of friends."

"T-then ... what happened to both of you? Why are you like that to each other?" my curiosity.

"I was his sister's partner back then." he said sadly. He didn't even tell me that he was sad, it could be seen in his eyes. He smiled bitterly at me. "I love his sister so much."

I looked at him confused. As far as I remembered, Aius told me that her sister committed suicide because her husband cheated on her, right? Then that means ... "You cheated on her." I was immediately prevented from hearing what should have been in my brain.

Alexander laughed bitterly. "So that's what they told you, huh? I guess Aius still believe that I cheated on his sister. He really is unbelievable." he said bitterly.

"Eh, what is it really?" I asked because I was really confused.

"It was the other way around." at that saying of Alexander my eyes literally widened in shock.

I couldn't believe I looked at him. I never thought that Aius' sister is the type of girl who'll cheat. She looks so kind and innocent.

"You can't believe, too, right?"

"Why did she cheated ... if ah..you don't mind telling it to me?"

"Because I'm incapable as a man." he said, he's voice is shivering. And his eyes are about to cry but he's stopping himself.

"W-what do you mean?" Even with the idea I had I still asked.

"I'm incapable of giving her children. That she badly wants. At first it was okay for us to adopt a baby that we can treat as our own, but then things messed up. I just woke up one morning that she's slipping away form me. Until one day ... one day ... I just discovered that she's .... she's pregnant. And I'm a hundred percent sure that it wasn't mine, 'cause I'm sick. But you know what? I still accept her after she asked for forgiveness and beg for me to stay with her. But what else can I do ... she fell out of love, I know it very well. I can feel it. And I know .... I know that she ... "Alexander couldn't finish what he was going to say because his tears kept dripping.

"She's already inlove to the father of her child, but she can't tell it to me. She can't let me go, 'cause she knew that there's a possibility that'll kill myself. I know she's suffering so hard with me. So I made up with my mind and go with my plan. If she can't let me go ... I will make a way for her to separate me. For the latter I will turn out to be bad. I dated lots of different girls, I went home drunk every night. " He's crying hard while telling all of his sufferings from the past.

I was just quietly listening to him, I was also just quietly watching him cry and somehow I could feel his pain. It makes my heart ache too.

"And then, finally she broke up with me. She told me she's tired of me and such. She wanted to leave me alone, and I just let her. That's my plan, by the way. To let her leave me. But I guess letting her go is a wrong decision. "

"Why?"

"She went to the one who got her pregnant, but then the jerk isn't in love with her, that fucking jerk. She ordered the abortion, and because she already loves that man, she followed the stupid man's wishes. She aborted the innocent child. He's so fucking selfish! I should have fathered the child. Then you know what's the worst? Huh? That is the time that Aius'sister committed suicide because of too much depression, she got depressed after she aborted her child. Guilt hunt her. And I feel like I'm a fucking useless husband. I should have stopped her. I love her so much. Aius is so mad at me to the point that he didn't allow me to attend her sister's funeral. " Alexander sobbed as he recounted them.

I never thought that Alexander is suffering too much. I thought he was fine, I thought he had no problem.

I could do nothing but stand on the bed and hug him. I also cried because of the pain and pity I felt for him.

"Don't blame yourself, you just did what you knew was right and good. Whatever happened to Aius's sister, it was her fault when she got pregnant. Don't take all the blame." I just said then I let him cry and cry until he calmed down.

To be continued...